Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I don’t know you anymore yet I kept longing for what we used to have not realizing that, that you and me from back then are long gone. We are trying to bring back to life something that di+ed long ago. We’ll never be how we used to and i struggle to accept that. To accept that,t that “you” I used to know doesn’t exist anymore just like how the memories of me that you hold have nothing to do with the person I am today. It’s been almost a decade already, it’s useless to work things out now, it’s too late. Maybe we should just move on and accept that we were meant to break instead of forcing for a story that already had an ending to continue. We are forcing it too much right now, every conversation we have about it makes it more awkward between us but we can’t ignore the elephant in the room either, it’s too big to pretend we don’t see it. I was foolish for thinking this would ever work out, I was excited about it and now i feel disappointed, the time we spend together is just so underwhelming and I keep getting this feeling that I’m talking to a stranger I can’t seem to get close to. I want to get to know you but Idk if it’s you or it’s me, actually it’s probably me, but someone has their walls up and neither of us knows how to trespass that wall. I thought I’d be great bc i remember having a lot of fun with you but now that, that isn’t you anymore, i think the most we can ever be rn is acquaintances.