I don’t know why u ignoring me! I don’t know u decided to leave me? If yes just tell me !? Don’t ignoring me ! Face it ! I’m dying everyday. Everyday when I woke up I can felt numbness in my heart. My mind too heavy. My eyes lost is glows. My body aching because I beaten myself. I’m blaming myself for everything. I can’t move on till u tell me u don’t want me. Stop giving me signal! I can’t assume that you are no more in my life. I want it for you tell me you don’t want me! Admit it you can’t save our love from your family. Please 

Anxiety

Please understand my intention was not to hurt you or cause you any type of discomfort.What i did was purely unintentional. Still if i hurt you in anyway,i am really sorry 🥺 from my heart .I mean when i say "I am sorry from my heart.
I am really not able to understand vey wt i am doing 😔 Just my face is in smile but is heart is full of pain for the thing i did. I don't know wt happened to me ,but when ur with me i am happy pls puppy talk with me ra. Sorry for the words i uttered in anger i told so many words in anger i can understand that and i hurted u a lot deep inside. Pls papa talk with me vey i am going mad. Can't u understand me potti and my heart 🥺Pls ra talk with me ...... 

3am Thoughts

Looks like no hope 

You deserve something you don't have to question. You deserve someone who is sure about you.

Life

To you;
It's been a year to the day since you changed my life, and not a day goes by that I don't think about you. I hate it. I hate you because my gosh you made me love you. I remember it perfectly; the day before the day I had been looking forward to all my teen life: the school dance. I went online and I found you. We talked and you were one person one moment, then someone else for hours. We ate together; you in your country and me in mine. You came back early and said how fast you were. We talked about our shared love of Shakespeare and how despite our age difference we flirted. I loved it, the feeling that someone could actually care about me; but those were just words. You were just words. You asked me to do things. I'll never forget the way you were so quick to ask me to be your Juliet. I said yes in a heartbeat and felt like I could die from joy. But months later I tried to die from the pain. The pain you caused me. You told me you loved me and I was so sick of hating myself and depressed so I wanted to believe someone could love me. And the name you gave me, a fake, you said as much, meant so much. You said everything I wanted to hear and everything I needed to ignore. You asked me to make a fake email and not to tell my parents because of our age gap. I thought so what, age is but a number. And isn't jail just a place though? I didn't find this out for a while though. You told me so much and explained it so easily. Did you know I only slept one hour that night? And my sister didn't at all. I dreamt of you finding me, kidnapping me. That's not love. But I trusted you. I believed in you and you used me, groomed me, abused me and I will never ever forgive you for what you've done to me. You're not the first to abuse me, but you are the first to hurt me this badly. And I hate you so fucking much I almost wish fire on you; but at the same time I wonder what if you weren't abusing me? What if I'm over reacting or jumping to conclusions? Are you gaslighting me or am I insane? I can't even trust myself any more. You know I hear your name, your age or country and I flinch. I can't watch my favourite movie, your name is in it, I can't listen to 2 songs because we dedicated them to each other. I've spilt so much tears, so much blood because of you. And I can't talk to anyone about this. My sisters will brush me off or tell my parents who will never believe me or forgive me or see me the same. I can't trust anyone. And you did this to me!!! I will never be the same you took away my first love, my first romance, the first bit of hope I'd seen since I was fucking 12! And you will never have to face the consequence. My hands are shaking. I'm all alone. And I hate you, but I miss you and I hate you because I miss you you disgusting bastard!!!! But you'll never hear any of this. I just want you to know; you ruined me. You ruin me. I wish I could say goodbye but it's too late you're in my head now. You make me want to die just to get rid of you you're everywhere and I can't run I can't wash you off me. I fucking hate you. You broke me. I hate that I loved you, I hate that I love the idea you made yourself to be. I hate how much time you've taken from me, how much joy and love and poems and stories and songs I wrote from this hell you put me in the dances I couldn't do even though it was my reason to live. Now I have none. I just keep living to keep others alive, because there is hope for them, hope I no longer have and I want so much better for anyone else than what I've been through. You knew what my family did to me, you told me you would never hurt me, you told me you would never leave me. I will never know if I'm crazy because you were telling the truth or if you are a liar and abuser. I'll never know and I can't understand why you would do this to me? I thought I found the thing I needed but now? Now I have nothing, now I am nothing. Just alone broken soul praying for the hope that you took from me. I thought you were the hero I needed. But heroes don't exist. I'm an antihero, you're a ghost. I don't know you but you know me and I can never shake that fear. I hate you. It's too late for me. But I can't even die. Believe me I tried. But if I try again people will judge and though they're annoying dicks, I love my family and no longer want to hurt them. I just need help. But what the hell can save this hollow, hopeless broken shell of a human? You did this and I will never forgive you. There aren't words for how I feel towards you, and that's a good thing, it means most people don't know this feeling. I pray it stays that way. 
From your Juliet; your obedient toy, as you knew me
Raven

Suicidal Ideation

were living in whats going to be a memory, i should of made the most of them when i still had them because its never going to go back to that. I should of been more grateful for what i had ://

Quotes

Love at First Sight...

I never believed in love at first sight,
the idea seemed like a fairytale,
out of my reach and reality. 

But when I saw you for the first time.. 
I was lost in the abyss of your brown eyes;
I was lost in the allure of your visage;
I was lost in your dainty smile;
I was lost in everything of you... 

We were really happy together but the time drifted us apart and we had to move really far away from each other... 

Even if you've forgotten me but I still love you and I will never stop loving you... 

I wish that we will meet again when the time will be in our favour.. 

Miss you my Love❤

Ansari Writes©

Can you guys tell how's this? 

Sometimes I wonder if I deserve to live

Depression

Either you will get it or you won’t. But the question is  how much positive we are to get it?

Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts