I don’t know why u ignoring me! I don’t know u decided to leave me? If yes just tell me !? Don’t ignoring me ! Face it ! I’m dying everyday. Everyday when I woke up I can felt numbness in my heart. My mind too heavy. My eyes lost is glows. My body aching because I beaten myself. I’m blaming myself for everything. I can’t move on till u tell me u don’t want me. Stop giving me signal! I can’t assume that you are no more in my life. I want it for you tell me you don’t want me! Admit it you can’t save our love from your family. Please 

Anxiety

Everyone tells you that you deserve better, but no one is willing to give it to you 😖

Frustration

No hope in life

Depression

Why people give hope when they themselves just ruin everything.

I'm sorry for the role I played. But you shouldn't have kept me in the dark. I am sorry for all the harsh and rude statement, i know you're hurt too. So am i. Things are never going to be the same. All you had to do was keep faith in me for once. Why didn't you? I love you. It sounds scary but i do. I really really love you. I just hope we don't end this way. I miss you way too much. And i know there are things you are hiding from me to keep me safe and not Hurt. But for that just confess them once just once . And i will believe you over everybody i promise you that. Don't try being a villain because you're not. I've always seen the good in you the light in you over everything. I still do. I know the time and people and everything just way to messed up. And i get it. But the heart wants what it wants. I grew up with you , physically mentally. Shared all my happiness and sorrow with you. Don't run away. I don't wanna let you go. I'll wait for you. I'll wait for things to get better. Because I've been in love with you since last five years without even realising it. You gave me all the love and care that i ever needed. I fucking care about you and love you way too much. Now watching you walk away it is just breaking me. You were right heartbreaks are devastating. Just don't leave. We can make things right. I wanna wait for you as long as you want me to. Just don't go away please don't. You're the best thing that happened to me in my entire teenage. Forgive yourself, forgive me and let's walk pass this. Please. I love you. I cannot hate you. I tried. I said stuff. But 2 days later when i came back to my senses i realised that I'll be the one suffering if anything ever happens to you. I'm sorry. Please forgive me. I love my family the most in this world and you are my family. Please don't turn into this stranger it hurts it really does. Come back. Everything will be fine. 

Love

https://medium.com/@Love92/hope-is-a-dangerous-thing-ff3866b465cb
My hope is not subsiding.

I really miss you. And i do i really wish things to go back to the way they were. I want you back in my arms back where we were. I really miss u. And i wish u miss me too. Mujhe mis karo yaar . I wish u could live me exactly the way I do. Kya tumko meri Kami nahi feel hoti? Or is it just me. I'm manifesting all ur love for me. I really am fed up of being in this grey area. I need u and ur commitment and your time. God please don't take this away from me ..i really love this person don't ruin it for me 

3am Thoughts

Every cycle comes to an end, but the pain of the unavoidable end doesn't hurt. At least not as much as it hurts to know that moving on to another phase in my life means leaving you behind, not that I want to but is almost a defined fact that soon enough you will be just a memory, a familiar name from those good old days.
Maybe it’s for the best, maybe it means it’s finally time to leave behind all the unresolved feelings that your name evokes deep inside me.
But it still hurts.
And I’m not even sure why.
Maybe because I love you, or have loved you somewhere along all this years. I don’t know for sure.
Maybe because no matter how much things changed you were always there, a strangely stable presence for a somewhat weak relationship.
But it hurts especially because of all the times I failed to leave you behind in the past, even though I always knew it was for the best.
Nothing lasts forever so how could I expect us to? But you were there, and every step I took hoping to get away I always ended up closer to you.
I don’t even know what you are to me, especially because I have no idea what I am to you.
And even if I try to hide it, I still hope you know that you occupy a big space in my heart, and I truly hope that there’s a space for me in yours.
Above all the biggest pain comes from knowing that in ten or some years, I may hear your name, and it may even sound familiar, but I may also not. And then we wont be friend, colleagues or god knows what, we will be strangers.
And then I will finally have let you go.
Even if it hurts.
Even if it breaks my heart.
Even if you never find out (either because I never understood or because I never told you) how much you mean to me.
And that’s why I need to let you go.
Because my head can’t be forever hung up on what we could have been if I had at least gathered up the courage to tell you.
But I didn’t, and I am still deeply attached to you.
Because no matter what ups and downs we might have had, I will be forever grateful to have had you by my side for so long.
And I hope someday I can tell you all of this.
I also hope we can have a proper goodbye, because hopefully the pain of leaving you will hurt a little less if I have the conscience that I at least said goodbye.


Relationships

I don't know if you want me back or not, but I do want you back. I mean I want what we had back, I want everything you gave up on back, I want that hope and that love I wasted on you. I want all those night that I cried for you back, all this time hoping that we would finally be closer, hoping that we have a chance...you just gave up on me...on us. I was willing to do everything just so we can be closer even if it was for just a minute, and I thought that you felt the same... But I guess you were just lying to me, I guess you knew you were going to leave, it would've been nice if you would've told me too...

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