I don’t know why I am sharing this but I feel like I have kept this to myself for too long and I can’t hold it in anymore, this is part of my life…I’ve never told anyone this before so, yeah.
When I was around 7 my brother started sexually harassing me and my sisters soon that turned into rape. I was very young so I didn’t really think anything about it but I still felt something was wrong with it. He continued to rape and sexually harass me and my sisters until he got a scholarship and moved to board school. After a year there he said he had changed but that summer…he harassed and raped my twin sister. Finally, in 2018-2019 my twin sister built up enough courage and told my mom. (around a month before we turned 11) When my mom figured it out it seemed like she had no reaction so I don’t know exactly how she felt. My brother apologized to me and my sisters when I was around 11 and even though I want to believe him…it still feels like there’s a possibility he will do it again.
I’m now 12, my family has moved to 6 different houses, and me and my sister to 7 different schools- we are now currently homeschooled and barely allowed outside. My first ever pet died on Saturday my brother has one year left in the boarding school and is coming back to live at my mom’s house, CPS has been called on my family three times and I don’t have any friends. My older sister constantly body shames me, my twin has started to develop suicidal thoughts and my mom has developed compulsive hoarding. My family now has mandatory family counseling.
And my father? I haven’t seen him in 1/2 months and barely see him 10 days a year.
How am I supposed to get through this?
