I don't know why after a long time i am missing you a lot today. I still think now you changed so much and who took my place in your life.all those words kept repeating in my mind. What else should I say .

Memories

I miss you so much S.... it hurts like hell. I am so sick of pretending to be fine, pretending to be strong when deep inside i only crave for you. What did i do wrong? That you didn't even listen to me. I kept on begging you to stay but you left me just like that. Your thought lingers on my mind every moment and your name on my tongue. I wish i could just say it to you.

Breakup

Have you you any incest problems?

Sexual Health

We will meet again.
As i then renew our relation
Which feels like a lifetime
You my dear, can start
By asking my name.

Dreams

Moments fade away, memories last,
Present is streaming right now, let go off the past.

3am Thoughts

Whenever you have hurted me
I've always tried to hurt you by hurting myself
When you lied to me about the girl of your childhood
I tried to hurt you by hurting myself
I cut myself till i bled like never before

And after years of hurting myself for the hurt you gave me
You stopped caring
It was like "oh yeah she cuts"

This time when you hurt me
I took all my hurt to someone else 
Hoping that it'd go away
But it didn't 
Because you're the only one who could heal the wounds that you give

But all you cared was how could I hurt you like that?
Why can't you just forgive me this one timeee???
Because I've realised that no matter what happens between uss
My happiness and my peace
Lies only with you.


Relationships

When it's time for festivities, what are some of your fondest memories? Have things changed today vs in the past? 

Family

Nothing is forever, not pain, not love. Everything goes eventually, so trust me you'll be okay.

I realized I'm not in love anymore. July 2021 is when "things ended" and I realized I had to move on cuz you and I would never work out. I thought I'd never get over those strong feelings I had for you for 5 years, I thought I would never love anyone like I loved you and I still don't know if I will however I can finally say I've moved on. I still love you but I'm not in love, those feelings changed. Meeting you was a blessing I should've been more grateful for, loving you was the happiest I've ever been but I refuse to believe loving you is the happiest I'll ever be. Not anymore. Thank you for everything, you're the best thing that could happen to me but everything that's good comes to an end and that's fine too, I'll always care and look out for you as a friend, I couldn't be your friend anymore after what happened, I was afraid that you'd associate anything I do with the fact that I was in love with you, I didn't want it to be awkward, I didn't want you to feel guilty when you found someone else, I didn't want you to feel like you owned me anything for what we once had. + Seeing you every day was too much for me to handle if I really wanted to move on.  I wish I would've done many things differently, I messed up many times but I don't regret it bc i can't blame myself for not knowing better, it was my first time having those feelings for anyone, my first relationship, my first kiss.. everything was new to me. Thank You for everything, you'll always be dear to my heart I hope in the future we can be friends like we once were before we felt for each other <3 I'm glad to see that you're doing well, I'm happy for you and I mean it this time.

Love

**if you are looking for the sign this is for you**
"you deserve to be happy. life isn't always about work, errands, getting things done, setting long term goals, making other people happy, etc. your life is about you. about what matters to you. so listen to yourself,  take time on yourself, to improve and understand the difference between what you need, and what you want. that should be your main priority. taking care of the little things, and chasing the moments that take your breath away.  someone love you, maybe you should let someone in. maybe you should let someone look after you for once, to text you in the middle of the night to make sure you're okay. someone to call you throughout the day just to remind you  of how much they love you. life is haurd but you, my dear, are made of the softest things, and you deserve a pair of gentle hands to lift your head above the waters, so you could inhale and learn to breathe on your own  again. "  -r.  m.  drake

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