I DON’T KNOW WHO WANT TO LISTEN TO THIS BUT. EVEN IF NO ONE HAS EVER TOLD YOU THIS I HOPE YOU WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER
- YOU ARE WORTHY
EVEN IN YOUR DIFFICULTIES, THIS IS A SEASON THAT HAS TESTED YOU FOR TOO LONG AND I KNOW IT'S NOT BEEN EASY FOR YOU TO KEEP HOLDING ON BUT HERE YOU ARE MY FRIEND, BRAVE AND STRONG, KEEP
GOING DESPITE IT ALL.

3am Thoughts

as much as i want to forget everything and think that they are not the same, i just don't know how.

I deserve it and I'll get it 

Affirmations

you told me that me distancing myself from you hurt you a lot, but really you've hurt me in so many ways to the point that i felt like the only thing i could do is distance myself from you so i dont get more hurt but really it hurt so much more than ive imagined and it fucking sucks because all ive ever done was love you and with you the best but you've hurt me more than anyone ever. but i still love you. even tho i shouldn't. it hurts like hell but im dumb i dont know any better. and you made me hate myself sm for hurting you to the point where i couldn't help it, to the point where i was about to give up on everything. and mabye its my fault because ik ive changed but ive changed because of you, literally. ever since you made me feel like im not enough for you.

I was surfing snap 👻 memories , totally refreshed.

we laughed we cried but it wasn't enough, I tried too hard to keep your love, but it was like it never mattered I know it was wrong but my heart wasn't strong cuz every time I tried to get it together it went off like a bomb & the lies would grow every time I got home. Cuz no matter how hard I tried I knew I couldn't survive. My parents didn't know and I wish I let you go. But your love was a drug and it was too late because I was addicted, so Fuck true love sex is enough right? That's what they say, isn't it? they lure you in the dead of night just to hit & quit before you all fight. But Fuck it, my life's in pieces, it's the pile of lies that came crashing down now I'm not mad its more of jealousy you see when I notice you with her it's like she's your everything, and I'm your side piece, why am I a Pisces cuz my emotions are wack sometimes my heart will crack and can't be fixed but ever since I met you life has been shit, I've lost their trust when they found out, but I lied to protect them because I was ashamed in all this fame, a disappointment is in reign, as queen because the more I sit in sorrow the more mean I can be, now I'm waiting on the day my parents see it wasn't my fault all of this is me being a rebellious teen. And they can't lie that they were angels because before you can fly you have to fall once or twice. And in a fright, if you have sex once in your life, your parents have the right to call you a whore, so my bad dad, sorry to be a bore but to fail you as your daughter must be a bother, next time you'll all bow down and hail the queen, because if I'm a demon as a teen just wait till the devil is free, now I'm not saying I'm perfect, hell that'll never be true, I'm just saying the truth, all this fucked up shit makes me sound like a bitch buy you gotta see it from my point of view all the fights and long nights got me scarred for life, I'm not sure if I'll make it through it cuz I'm barely 16 & had too many dreams. You gotta understand teens make mistakes no harm in that just take your time to talk back rather than misunderstand them, because there is no telling what they will do with their minds so underdeveloped, it's a dangerous game with the devil and they need some help up, off the ground, cuz scraping your knees after falling down is a pain that you can drown in a bottomless pit full of darkness, it's taking over now, and this devil needs a sacrifice here's some advice run as far as you can, and don't think twice. the more you stick around the harder shit gets so listen to me spittin this because in my next life I'm still gonna be a bitch, I'm a queen that don't need a ring to bring hellfire to the scene, parents are mean no need to be extreme if you wanna make it out alive you gotta be prepared to fight for your life, now I'm putting on my crown no backing down, my horns are out, and I'm rising up from the underground no rules for me I'm the devil's queen and now I'm free to be me.

Depression

I don't know if you want me back or not, but I do want you back. I mean I want what we had back, I want everything you gave up on back, I want that hope and that love I wasted on you. I want all those night that I cried for you back, all this time hoping that we would finally be closer, hoping that we have a chance...you just gave up on me...on us. I was willing to do everything just so we can be closer even if it was for just a minute, and I thought that you felt the same... But I guess you were just lying to me, I guess you knew you were going to leave, it would've been nice if you would've told me too...

Breakup

I deserve to be thrown out

Mental Illness

You, yes you. You're strong. You're so strong. Don't loose hope. This will end, alright? This will not last forever. If you're going through hard time then take a deep breath in and out. In and out. Stop worrying yourself. That won't help you. My love, take care of yourself. This is not going to last forever. Take care. Just know, that me, from somewhere around the earth is praying that you heal and have a happy life.

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