I don’t know where to start. Since the past few weeks I’ve been feeling terrible. It’s a mixed bag. I feel like a failure. Like I wasn’t supposed to become what I have become. I’ve let everybody down: my family, myself. I wonder if I’ve always been a like this and all that I’ve achieved was only a fluke, luck by chance. I wonder if I’ve been a bad person and it’s all coming right back at me now. I feel like there’s no hope left, nothing to look forward to. Everything seems difficult. Waking up in the morning is tedious-another day shall pass and I shall have done nothing. It’s become like a nightmare. I was never like this. Never. I used to be productive, action oriented, I loved to write and to draw. Nowadays, there’s nothing that gives me joy. I’m such a failure. I can’t talk to anyone about this.
I want all this to end. I really, really do. I often think of ending my life. You know when death feels easier than having to live on.
I’m such a failure. I wasn’t supposed to end up like this.
Friend you are facing the same what thousand of people do now. Due to corona many people get fired,they lost their job. they just keep themselves in their house. But the thing we only could do right now is upgrade ourselves and utilize this time to what we wanted to do most but we didn’t due to we were busy then.this is the perfect time to spend some quality time to live and understand our family too. And try something new which you think you are best at like you mentioned writing and drawing. Indulge yourself in some activities. An Empty mind is house of devil. start running in the morning you will get positive vibes from it. And most important thing if you feel this time is worst for you don’t be panic have some patience and let it be passed. Because situation never will be the same for long.
Every sunset brings the promise of a new dawn.