I dont know whats happening it isnt charging anymore. My laptop my love please come back to the normal settings I bought you at. I want to smash your buttons so hard. Wanna play csgo again. Who am I kidding dont have money to buy a pass.

Delusion

Sometimes you just have to keep quite and say nothing and keep waiting for the right time.... Trust the universe and it will be just fine...... Everything's going to fall into its place one day...... Be patient ✨

3am Thoughts

I’m struggling in math and it sucks I want to be good at it but I’m not because what the teacher says just goes through my brain and out. but I’m passing it and I have straight A’s so it’s weird. Like I’m not failing, idk how tho. I do bad on my tests but stay after school and I retake them. But sometimes to get a good grade it takes so much effort. I failed my last math test and I had to stay after, do some of it in homeroom, study, do the corrections, retake. I’m so tired it’s like I have so much to do to get a good grade. I wish I could just relax but if I did I would fail for sure. All my other classes are so easy, like I have a literal 100 in science. I have. 93 in English and a 100 in social studies. And to my surprise a 95 in math. But it takes so much effort to get that 95. In any minute it could just go down. 

Education

Curiosity what I have,Talking and listening and sorting problems of people I love it it makes me happy and relax.If u wanna have someone who can listen ur problems be ur friend try me I love too hope all will be well soon 

Anxiety

Do you ever see pictures of old friends? Ones that you used to hang out with 24/7. Ones that you shared all of your secrets with. Ones who were there to hold you when you broke down. And you just wonder, how could they have just stopped? Stopped being there for you, stopped talking to you, stopped seeing you, they just stopped. With no explanation …

Friends

Any secret confession?

Other

Sometimes I feel like everything in my life is falling apart at a very fast pace and I can't control myself going in a depress kind of state... I try to find moments to bounce back... Eventually I find them but it's just an awful feeling which eats up from inside...

Adulting

it took some time but I convinced my Mom to let me do online schooling and then I realized I don't want to back to in-person schooling and then  I sat their and cried in my bedroom because St. pius x , Inglewood , Spruce avenue and East glen my former high school right now I was bullied in all 4 school's. I felt like an outsider but  I never really wanted to fit in and I also didn't feel like it was necessary to have friends I knew what my purpose was to graduate school. I can't go through that again feeling like an outsider and always remember being bullied and called names like loser , faggot , told to shut the f*** up , ugly , disgusting  , drools a lot  or being told by the way did you know your ugly.

Bullying

I don't know why I am still living. Why I am still in my bed dreaming. Wondering why my parents didn't choose to abort me. Why they didn't abandon me? When they will just treat me like some sort of maid. When they will just yell at me for showing my feelings. Do they even want me? All I want is them saying 'good morning' every morning with a hug or a small peck on the forehead. Telling me to eat more, instead of 'you should lose more weight, no one will like you' even when my weight is normal. I mean like I don't care if no one will want me, because there will be someone who will love me and appreciate me for being me when you didn't. I don't know what is wrong with me these days. I feel angry, annoyed, sad, confused, and frustrated. I feel like distracting myself is the only way to forget what I feel right now.  I always feel annoyed at the smallest things. I want to be happy. I want to surround myself with better people, but I can't because of my insecurities. I don't want to live like this.

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