I don’t know what’s even happening in my life I’m tired I’m irritated my pre boards are going on I can’t concentrate i have to study for boards also me and my boyfriend are in long distance we talk for only 40 mins a week as he’s in hostel and only get’s his phone on Sunday i have no one to talk to i mean i can talk to my friends but i want him he used to ask me every single detail of my day he genuinely made me feel loved after all the family trauma I’ve seen from past 15 years. Last 4-5 years were the most difficult time on sep 19 2019 my grandfather passed away and on sep 7 2020 my father passed away he wasn’t a nice person my grandmother also not a nice person she speaks bullshit about my mother i really don’t feel like i have a family everyone hates eachother and atlast me and my sister suffers the most. And now my family is dependent on me and my sis everyone says " you 2 only have to do everything support your mother and grandmother" I’m genuinely tired of these free advices i mean i know i have to support and i will but it’s just too much of pressure. I really can’t see my mother in pain every decision in her life was against her marriage, work and EVERYTHING!!! People say childhood is the best phase of life i mean not in my case they say “what have you seen in your life😂” I’m like bro that’s the problem I haven’t seen anything I want my childhood everyone is creating memories and i have none from my past years of life i have my father coming home drunk at 12 am and beating my mother and grandparents this is my childhood memory no one gives a fuck about the things I’m suffering from i genuinely don’t want to live it’s just too much my mother and grandmother flights too much too much of trauma and really because of this trauma no one can see me and my sister’s life destroying
I can understand you! Seeing your family fight infront of you might cause stress and might make you feel worse. But do not even think to die. Be grateful for things you have my dear! Your boyfriend talks just 40 mins a week. There are few ppl out there who doesn’t have even a single person to talk to. You have him so be grateful for that. I can relate. We can only share anything and everything to that one person and even if he isn’t available I know how that feels. Don’t worry everything will sort out! Don’t get stressed. Work on yourself. Do what makes you happy. Do what gets you peace. Utilize the time well. Study well. Make your mom proud. I love you! You’re amazing! You can do many things ahead! All the best!
Thank you so much means alot❤️
see if u can goon weekend trek that would give u a break . help ur mom go on awalk with her in the evening talk abt things , watch movies these small small things makes a bigger difference and if possible just hug ur mom and say "i know u are stressed but one day i will make u proud dont worry just abit longer , u have came a long road ahead and helped me and now i am here to take away ur worries away from u just the way u did " i am sure ven she want some assurance and words do have power . and from the right person they hit different just do this i am sure it will work . stay strong and positive . connect to nature and in case if u decide to go on a trek try @mumbaitrekkers they have good one day treks at reasonable prices . its safe for girls i have done many treks with them . all the best 😇🤞😊
