I don't know what to do
He treated me like a baby
And he left me without saying goodbye
I can't bear the thing that he left me 🥺

I can't even come to conclusion if he's still my love or my ex or worse a stranger

I even tried to call... But no use...
Just waiting for him

At least your clear about her.. I'm stuck

What if he returns... Like yo girl I'm back😶

Idk... Mtlb... The way he smiles at me.. God 😶

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Does the intensity of love you have for your loved ones scares you? 
Have you ever cried just because the person you love so intensely actually exist?
 Like their smile, their eyes, their face makes you forget everything and you just get lost somewhere? 
Have you ever found yourself loving someone so intensely?? 

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this is probably gonna be long, but please read and talk to me. thank you. 
a couple hours ago, I was very very very suicidal. I am a victim of severe depression, anxiety, suicidal ideation and probably a lot more things that I'm unaware of. I want to take professional help, but I can't afford it. 
my parents are going through a divorce right now, and I cannot begin to tell you how much the whole process has traumatised me. 
my father lived abroad for almost about 28 to 30 years, so unlike other people who still manage to be so close to their parents even if they are abroad, I was not lucky enough to have that. all that my father cared about is money. 
but even then, I still knew I had a father. so when he left us in 2020, it was like my whole world fell apart. the ground under my feet just disappeared. it suddenly felt so lonely and it got so dark. don't get me wrong, I love my mom and I'm very happy to be with her, but he was my father. I loved him with all my heart despite the type of toxic person he was. I felt like a burden to this world (because my uncles are looking after us now) but they (my uncles) are not financially very stable. a lot of financial crisis. plus they have their own families to take care of. my brother has given a million interviews, but he's not able to find a job. my mother is not that strong to work. my sister has to get married. I couldn't go to a college, not because I failed, I got 79% but my father refused to pay my fees and now I wasted a year. it kinda adds to my trauma because now I have to study w my juniors and answer everybody why I took a break year. ( this is only if I get to study ) 
I've always been a good student. when I listen to my friends talk about their college life, it makes me very sad. don't get me wrong, I'm happy for them, but it makes me sad that I don't get to experience any of that. not because of my fault, not because my father couldn't afford it (that would be another story. ) but because he DIDNT want too pay mt fees.
so yeah, das my story. I'm kinda tired, exhausted, hopeless. like I want to be happy too. I want peace of mind. I want to live. I want a reason to live. I know they all say "think about your mom, your loved ones. " 
"suicide is not the answer. its not the solution" 
bruh, my normal rational self knows all that, but when you suicidal, none of that shit matters because the voices in your head get too much. the noise is suffocating. its like your drowning, or buried alive, or you're literally just in a crowd full of people and you're screaming your lungs out asking people to help you, but you're inaudible to everyone. no kidding, this is exactly how I feel. I start pulling my hair, silently screaming ( because I can't let my mother or anyone know the things I'm going through. they already stressed enough about everything) 
it takes every cell in my body to control myself. this one time I tried to kill myself by choking myself. I hate living like this. 
oh and now if you tell me my father is gone, it does not affect me anymore. everything im going through is a side effect of the trauma that he has cause or it is the trauma from the last. 
life kinda sucks bro 

Depression

Unspoken words weigh a lot.

I am regretting my decisions..why every time I get hurt I isolate myself so much that it degrades my life my future my everything..my thinking skill ..and here I am with nothing good in my hand

There's this girl in my class
Idk she literally hates me
one time she was too offensive and I just confronted her about that thing
and she just seems to hate me after that
She changes seats if by any chance we sit together
she literally tells I'm loud even if there are louder people in ny group
She ignores me and my questions when we hang out
she's soo chill and cool with anyone except me
She turned up on everyone's birthday party except mine
And she just makes disgusted faces when I try to talk
Idk I'm just affected by it 

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