I don’t know what mental issues I have with me but I do have depression. I am unclear about myself. I always doubt about myself. I compare myself with other. I am a 17 year old fighting to fit into this blindfold society. So actually I was chatting with a friend from Korea. I met her in an Study app, she was wearing a Swarovski pendant. I enquired about it with her. She said her mom gifter her for middle school graduation. I was flabbergasted. My Mom never ever gifted Me anything. I lived a miserable life. I am still living a miserable one. My mom doesn’t know anything. What nowadays teens what, what they need,what they crave for. So I called her and asked me to buy a pendant as my birthday was coming. She was like India is fighting a whole pandemic out there, we should be grateful that we are safe and all that she said. I said I don’t care I need a pendant. She scolded me very dirty. No one can imagine that kind of scouldings in their life. That’s the way she scolds me everyday. All I want is small gifts from her and taking me out in free time. But she doesn’t know all these. I need a solution to my problems. Should I mend myself or just leave her way.?
See, Indian parents would never really tell you have they are growing through in their personal lives, since looking week in front of your child is frownd up on. they make sure you have food to eat, they are providing you with good education, making sure all your basic requirements are met, they love… Maybe they are very good at expressing it, trust me they love, please understand they too suffer a lot of things in silence and all their reaction and behaviour have a reason.
