I don’t know what i want exactly there are tonn of emotions feelings which im going through…it started last year sincr then I’m in love with a girl who has been my friend since 3-4 years she likes me too we were in an unofficial relationship i feared commitment we always thought we have enogh time and everything was going just fine since then eventhoygj we were not officially in a relationship but we both were aware of our feelings i have had so many issues in my lofe but having her was the onlu happiness i had last week on Saturday i got to know she told e she is getting engaged after 2 days on 23 november to a guy of her family’s choice since then I’m not able to hold myself i gave my everything to be with her to make her happy she is my love…i tried stoping her from this engagement she didn’t i guess she wants it and we both belong from different religions she is a muslim from a conservative family ajd iam a hindu
After getting to know about engagement i tried to cut myself out of her life but i cant she was my bestfriedn she said she can’t say no to her father because he wants her to marry now i don’t know what to do i cant force her i can’t stop myself thinking about her…since last 7-8 monyhs my life was literally revolving around her only my day stated with her and ended on her…we shared everything she told me earlier that her parents are looking for a guy for her but we were not sure coz we both are just 21 but all of a sudden after getting to know about her engagement I’m not beinh able to do anything on that very day i cried talking to her for 3 hours but i thought to be strong i went to work i did that for 5 days but im exhausted I’m done feeling broken im not going office since last 2 days i still talk to her but i cant tell her what im going through it will make it worse for her…my brain is exploding with emotions i want to cry i want to be with her the feeling of losing her id killing me i love her so much i don’t know what to do im not able to sleep im not able to eat i cant help it but think about it only i dony have luxury of taking break i have to work i have to do that damn job i have to earn i love her i love her so much
Dude, you were in love with her, but couldn’t give a commitment?
She waited and tried her best .
Now what’s the use in regretting… I feel you both should have been in a official relationship and proved your love.
She might not had enough trust on you.
Okay but what’s the use in talking about it right now.
You need to move on. Distract yourself and get into the reality…
Kartik singhal @chandler
I did i always wanted to make it official she was not ready because of her past experiences i wanted her to do it when she feels its the right time i never wanted to force it all i want and i want is to be with her
Somehwere deep down both u and her knew it won’t work out. That’s why both of you dint make the commitment which shud have been done years back. And girls in some conservative families I can understand their situation. In some very “educated” families girls get killed for not marrying in arranged. So u knew that this all had to come to an end. If you feel like you are loosing a friend, then I’m sure she won’t just randomly stop supporting you In life. But if you thought she would wait forever for you, I’m sorry bud. It’s hard to hear but u really have to hit yourself hard with the reality that this was never meant to be and that u will have one day a lovely and amazing girl who will be your everything and that day u will smile and think all this.
Ik im still talking to her i will keep supporting her she is my bestfriend and i knoe its was not gonna work but i love her i have accepted that she can’t be with me i cant have her she will be officially engaged on 23 but whatever the reality is you cant dodge the feeling of losing your only happiness i will not make it worse for her by blaming her but i wan to feel calm for one damn moment i want one moment of relif from this gut wrenching pain of knowing that i cant have her
I totally understand this feeling 🫂 cry how much ever you feel break. Break down how much ever your heart asks. Don’t hold back and let time do its magic 🌞 sunny days will come dear friend
I wish there was a way to erase all of this outta ur life i wish she will be happy i wish everything will pass
