I dont know what i m feeling right now?? I m not even despressed ?? When i m working then its ok but when i sit free i feel bad a real heavy burden on me because i love her and she dont . Still we are talking , but today we fought again funny thing i dont even know she is real or fake i m really pretending to be ok but i m not. Talking to myself what i m doing i cant even sleep and today i cried but still dont know why i want help i cant just i cant please help


The way you say it sounds like your already in a relationship.
If you are or if your not in a relationship, the only way is to tell her, you love her.
Then ask her if she loves you and if she willing to give it a chance.

One Sided Love

Okay so here is a thing I'm quite confused about.
I'm currently in my 2nd year of pursuing BA(H) Economics from the University of Delhi.
The thing is I want to do Law, MBA, and a diploma course in photography. At first, my aim was to do an MBA after graduation but somehow I got an interest in Law and photography so that's my hobby, I like to do it. 
I'm confused about in which order should I pursue these courses? It's difficult for me to rank them.


Education

I'm a single mom staying along with my parents. I'm very conscious and careful about my kid's health and often teased about it. Recently my kid fell sick and as usual I was supposed to take him to the doctor instead I stayed back and used some stupid tips which resulted to his mouth ulcer. He is not able to sleep in the night since past 2 days. My boy is just 3 and now I'm scared that I'm not a good parent. I regret many such simple decisions where I tried to take suggestions from someone else instead of following my instincts.

It's getting harder now. People are taunting me that being a single mom is the worst decision instead I should go back to my abusive husband. IT SUCKSS!!!

Parenting

I feel pity for single boys who are here shamelessly asking for girlfriends and their instagram. 


Love

Now I know that parents dont think bad about their childrens..But when it comes to marrying they always pressurize indirectly in Indian families. And when we start bit opposing them they behave like we have been raised wrongly and rigorously start comparing to other's children and also when you say something they just start putting you in guilt trips. At these situations what should be our call. 

Confusion

hate how i only feel pretty with makeup on now 

Insecurity

Sending love! 

Affirmations

I forgot I had counseling today and I don't have time to take a shower so that's lovely. I also got a pretty bad score on a math test I took today. 8/18. We didn't go over half of the things that were on the test but it's whatever. Also for anyone who saw what I posted yesterday, about how I made a new friend, he's not talking to me. I know we have different time zones but I'm messaging him at times when he is most likely awake. I'm really disappointed because I really liked him. I think for my birthday in December, I might get a new phone so I can message him on Snapchat or something like that but I'm not sure. I hope he replies to me. But I also made another friend who has the same time zone as me I'm pretty sure. Maybe an hour off or something like that but he responds to me. I really hope my other friend responds to me soon, I miss him. 

Friends

Mera pasindida mard mujhe hi pasand nai karta
Bohot rona aata hai sochke  hi. Itna ki koi aur uski pasandida aurat hai and ek aur future Mai hogi jiske saath woh khush rahega aur woh sabh kuch karega uske liye joh Mai chahiti ki mere liye kare - flowers, ki$$e$, dates, hugs etc. 
Mai toh thak gayi effort karte karte ki Mera pasandida aadmi mujhe wapas like kare lekin usne bhi thaan Rakhi hai ki usko koi aur pasand hai lekin main kabhi nai. And I have SOOOOOO much love for him that I don't know what to do with it because I always thought I would buy him gifts, bake him Brownies, give him ki$$e$, ki$$ his lips, hug him, let him sleep on my chest
And I keep on convincing myself ki he is my soulmate but to be honest all the crap that he put me through, I don't think he is even thoug I really want him to be. Also, I have this very negative trait, that I think this is best I am ever going to get so I am sad. Kya hai yaar Mai tere liye apni saari kamiya hata dungi, tu Bata toh sahi kya hai woh sabh, I will mold myself into the person you want me to be just like me back please. I don't care how poorly you treat me, I will be here hands on foot waiting for your love. Please love me back. Or if not help me get over you. 


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