I don’t know what I just did. My entire confidence is somewhat shattered and I’m finding it extremely hard to approach my teacher, because I care A LOT about what she thinks of me. I try my best not to. I received a news, which really made me frustrated and I wasn’t mentally prepared for it (nothing major don’t worry) and in anger and frustration and rush I did the work assigned by her in such a rush. The next day, she checked my work and I made such stupid mistakes that made me feel ‘this is what happens when you slack off’ and I received messages from her as well to correct them, I knew she was mad and disappointed. And I haven’t been able to pay a lot of attention in tuitions as well, because everything is online now. And I really feel myself being behind in life. Behind on my work, my health, my career, my life, my mental health, and I see my friends making progress and I think to myself, which basically seems like an excuse to me really, “What’s the point? I’ll get this subject and this concept, because I’m so dumb” . Why am I like this? god, I really wished change comes easy.