Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I don’t know if I should say this here or not but as this app is about mental well-being, I think I should ask …it’s a MUSLíM thing, so if there any muslím scholar Muslím brother or special Muslím sister please write your opinion and suggest me…(don’t pretend to be a Muslimif not)…
It is one of the day when I am having anxiety blast and these days anxiety with weird frustration and its bothering me so much…
I go to a library, I never talk to anyone since 1 year ,I only go there to study and come back home… And I’m kind of person who take so much pride on my religíon I really appreciate girls who on their own follow religion wear hijab and all that, not just Muslim but all girls who follow their religion, so there is/are girl in library who comes with wearing burka also pray namaz in library (majority Hindu area and its unusual or …daring😑 bcs library owner allowed them) and there seat itself is an evidence of religious knowledge, … Even after all of this I came to know that she is having some kind of relationship, (even heard of intimate) with library owner ( similar age) , I didn’t believe at first but when I saw the way they talk and how engaging that library owner is with her I’m convinced, now this fact itself just disgusted me… I am having all kind of emotions I am not able to grasp all this… Like fine, ‘if you want to do it…do but don’t drag the religion in it’… Also because I am really frustrated… My exams are coming and my section of library became really bad… That same library owner knows that in my section only sincere student sit… but even after that he is not repairing the AC which blow hot air these days… We are suffering from suffocation and not able to study , if by any chance AC start working he comes and switch off till 8 pm … while the other section which is famous for nibba nibbi, gf bf … There is 2 AC one cooler and he let it work till 10… (that girl is also in this section) … I didn’t knew it but after the incidence of this AC I got to know about her and more… All this sum up resulten anxiety frustration mood swing headache in me,… I want to leave this library now but the space is good also he allows till 11 pm which is lacking in all the other library… Now I am just stuck, I want to study but I am not able to study…🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻… And this religious thing coming again and again whenever I see them… I am getting curious if she is married and more questions like this but it’s not good for me I am getting distracted from my study… And yes I am still getting out of my 5yr old di pration…