I don’t have a crush on anyone right now because I’ve never been asked out ever it’s probably because I’m ugly 

Ok so all im going to say is... YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL/HANDSOME and YOU SHOULD BE CONFIDENT and it doesnt matter what you look like you deserve to be happy and you can crush on anyone you want to and if they make the mistake of rejecting you or mocking you then thats on them because they dont deserve you anyway thats why they are called crushs you keep crushing the imposters until you get to your soulmate you got it just be more self confident and go out and rock life

Insecurity

hey guys,
today has not been the best. 
my mum wants to move in with her asshole boyfriend and doesn't care about how it makes me feel , his an alcoholic and gets really abusive when drunk . he kicks us onto the curb at 9pm at night time multiple times and now my mum wants to fully move in . what happens if they break up? we will have no where to go. one of my many stresses running through my head right now. 

Stress

I am an introvert. I generally feel very uncomfortable around people or being left out in a crowd. But then finally I have a friend circle. A small one but it's every thing I ever wanted. So it's 2boys (including me) and 2girls. 
We 4 have great memories together, late night talks, video calls, ludo and meet ups and everything. 
Now my deep secret is I secretly like one of my best friend. I really really like her. She and I actually went through the same stuff, same kind of break up and an annoying ex of course. Bitching about the people we hate and sharing family stuff. We have the same taste in music and the best thing is she is such a good speaker and I am a really good listener which makes us like a perfect match. And yet I was too scared to tell her. 
When one day we (just the 2 of us) were having this deep conversation when suddenly out of nowhere I somehow told her I liked her. I was completely shocked when she liked me back. Everything was going perfectly untill now.... It's been 1 week since then, and it's awkward af. I mean she is out of topics now and that awkward silence is sooooo disturbing. 
I am mentally so frustrated right now. I just don't want us to be awkward or anything and I don't want her to stop liking me because I like her so much. And we are not dating soo.... 
Sometimes I try cracking jokes but that doesn't seem to work and it's totally awkward. 
I wish I could do something about it :(

I don't feel confident because of my hairs, getting thinner and Falling everyday also I am in relationship but at some point i think my girlfriend will leave me because of this, as every girl expection is to have a handsome bf with long hairs, I think a lot about my hairs but what to do i dont know sometime i feel very depressed. I'm scared what if i gets bald with time no one gonna love me!

Anxiety

Iam 45 year female, i got married at the age of 17 with 40 years old person it was arranged marriage . After getting married he rarely was with me as i was too young i didn't know anything even sex he raped me on first night itself he told if u don't allow i will inform ur parents ,i never loved any person i started liking my husband but he never got attached 3 months he did sex with me later told i look like small girl , as i was kid he use to buy food and dresses and i was very happy with him he used to lock and go to offs and will comeback after 3 days like this 3 years went i started fighting with him so he joined me to hostel for further studies as i go then again fights later came to know tt married in 2nd puc,i studied and i got bank job posted in other state later on suppose ground i got transferred to my husband place. My in-laws started asking abt kids but we didn't had sex. I can't tell anyone so got IVF done and I got one baby life was going smoothly in all this times my husbands sister son helped me I was only daughter heand there was no much gap between us only 4years he wil call me aunty he supported me in carrier and all he was like my own brother son guide and everything .he encouraged me in carrier so I got promoted as manager .he was preparing for civils at the time despite of attempts he didn't got through so he want to start buisness i gave him loan later he want to start software company with his two friends I gave loan again though papers are not correct more over his dad is thasildar so in worst case he may pay like that days went through he got project of3 crores so he needed45lakhs i sanctioned loan on my own risk hoping that in advance he will repay full  amount.he gave bribe later it got cancelled so amount as gone his marriage fixed he changed totally and he told he can't repay i went to his parents and begged they asked with whose permission u gave loan but when he is running company they didn't know from where that amount came.bank inspection started and I am in trouble sleepless nights crying and all , everyone in bank are like I used that money and all I was very low under depression ,helpless thattime my officer  was there it was covid time he was bachelor I felt bad that he was not getting food from anywhere so asked him to come home and have food he told he can't come inside but will take tiffin.he is younger than me 12years .sohe used to come talk like this happened for 6months intake we used to talk10minus latee15and laater2 hours sometimes or4 hours also but only official mattersschool days or college or planning of branch as he was my marketing officer, he started helping me in household works my husband got retired and he shifted to Village and alone i was managing,dad expired and my mom used to take of my kid,i started sharing all my problems he supported so life was like little ok atleast someone is there to listen my problem v both started to neet executives and planning to solve how to solve my problem , one day he told he likes me nd he loves me he want to give me what and all I lost in my life he will keep me happy but until he will get transferred to his place ,swear on God i never had sex for12years and I didn't accepted him for sex,i want one person to share i wanted care, attention,love one shoulder when i told ok he wanted to have sex with me I was not prepared but was afride if I say no i will loose him also he started touching me on roads also so I only told better to book room so been there covid time my mother and daughter went to Village as her school was not there I was alone he started coming inside house it was most happiest days in my life he cared me loved me forr3 months almost live-in  my bank issues started increasing otheraide he also started changing for everything scolding using very bad words randi and all started beating me I can't tell anyone,bz it's external martial affair already I lost respect in bank now family but I love him a lot morethan my self sometimes morethan my daughter also sometimes he lovs me like anything sometimes he scolds and beats me .i used o think enough he will come and beg and will say without me he can't live later I will accept this happened for 2years he got transferred to his native i was very upset still i bought him Watever he wants and all i used to give him so many gifts also,he left me that day i cried a lot a lot but he was even not bothered he just left that day also at airport he scolded me that I didn't packed his luggage properly he is not bothered that he is going to leave me permanently he left.second day i called him he didn't spoke to me properly he started ignoring when I call and fight he is like c u fight that's y I don't feel like talking to you, initial days of relationship he told he has to get married once he got married he won't have physical relationship with me but he will be there for me for lifetime .i told ok neither I want to spoil his life, but now he is not ready to talk he didn't even asked how am I,he told he doesn't have time for me his family is priority iam nothing. I was there for him atleast for few days or monthm i thought he  will be normally talking suddenly i become alone totally helpless during that tough time bank fired me from work immediately i called him he told tum ghatiya ho that's y this happened I a totally helpless, still i thought he was angry on me so i went to his place to do course for my future i called him he abused me he told I am blackmailing him and all i begged him not to do like this he came to meet me one day thought all our sfights will be stopped once he saw me I just wanted one ending where I don't want to feel even he cheated me but there also he didn't spoke to me propy as v both met at metro so i only asked book room ,i want to talk to him fight with make him understand he booked v room we went there 15 minus he was wit did physical normally his anger used to comedown if he does physical i was wait now will talk peacefully but he told need to vacate room i was upset cried and started fighting he beated me kicked me,i came out of the room i feel like iamprostitue even with them people will spend more time.i lost everything in my life.now also I love him a lot he was only person who cared and loved me but i can't call him. My daughter what mistake she did .bank i gave loaan i did mistake so got punishment. But loving him he told I played sympathy card and i mused him as tissue paper iam ghatiya aurat i know how to play with people's.iam blackmailing him and all.i left him but daily I am dying i want to die  but I am worried abt my daughter now no income,no work nothing only depression no one is there my husband is giving some amount for maintenanast everything waiting to die


Depression

I fell in love with my friends girlfriend ♥️ 
She likes me too. 

This friend is my friends brother and my brothers friend too. Whole lot of common peoples here 
What should I do?? 
🙄😦

Relationships

Candles represent hope, but who knows how the hope today will lift me the weights of my burdens in a few months?

Honestly not feeling really good school is getting hard have you ever had the highest expectations in your family h the end when you have all A’s they say talk to me when you have all A+ like I can’t even get a good job or I am proud of you without being ridiculed why won’t you just let me be happy oh and Brianna if you are seeing this it’s on sight I hear you have been dying hella shit about me and my family watch your back

I feel like I am just self sabotaging myself. I am not sure how to stop.

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