I don't feel the need to live anymore. Why do I even try? When I know I'm surrounded by dissapointment? 

Yeah I do. But is he/she even on my side? 

Suicidal Ideation

Arghh, why can't she just close the door. CLOSEEEEEEEEEEEEE the damn door.

Anger Issues

For you ✨✨✨

प्रिय तुम, 
आज का दिन भी अपने साथ कई सारे सवालों के साथ आया है, जो तुम्हारे मन में कई सारे खयाल लाते हैं, तुम अपने से जुड़ी हर चीज को अत्यधिक सोचते हो, हर जज़्बातों को दिल की गहराई से महसूस कर जाते हो, और जिस हिसाब से तुम लोगो की हर उम्मीदों पर खरे उतरते हो, तुम्हे भी लगता है की वो भी तुम्हारे साथ हो, पर हमारा खुद के सिवा किसी और पर बस कहा, हम कोशिशें कर सकते है खुद से जुड़ी बातों को उन्हे समझाने की, लेकिन अगर वो समझना ही नहीं चाहेगे तो क्या ही कर सकते है...

इसलिए उम्मीदों का दामन छोड़ कर वो करो जिसे तुम्हारे दिल को सुकून मिले, अच्छाई करो लोगो के लिए नही बल्कि तुम्हें अच्छाई पर भरोसा है इसलिए...पर दूसरो से किसी भी चीज की उम्मीद ना करना, अगर किसी से उम्मीद रखनी है तो खुद से करो, कभी निराश नहीं होगें।।।।।

- Queen 👑

Overthinking

College life is drawing to a close. 

Lonely

My ex best friend used to laugh with people who would call me a sl*t for having kissed my boyfriend once and used to say that she will never be able to achieve her career goal because she’s a girl. 
He started asking me to break up with my boyfriend of 2 years because according to him, my boyfriend didn’t treat me right. He then stopped talking to me because I wouldn’t break up. My friends and I thought maybe he’s going through something so we should reach out to him and let him know that we’re here for him. He simply humiliated us on that call so we left him alone. 
Later, I got to know that he has told people that he likes me. Then he tried to hack into my gmail account and when I confronted him about about the same, he started yelling at me and threatening to tell my parents about my secrets. When my other 2 friends joined that call, he said he didn’t try to get into my account and he was just trying to reach me. (I hadn’t blocked him anywhere lol). We then decided that we’re done with his drama and aren’t going to talk to him. After 2 months of that decision, he tried to reach out to us again and he didn’t accept his fault. Instead he completely ignored when I said that he hurt me. Later he tried to hack into my Instagram account and when confronted, he said he didn’t do it and even if he did, I can’t prove it. Then his brother threatened us three that he has connections and all. We came to a conclusion that this person shouldn’t try to contact any one of us and now the chapter is closed. 
I did a mistake because I really wasn’t okay. I used to have anxiety attack literally everyday. A friendship of 5 years, ending just like that. I needed answers to why he treated me like this so I reached out to him and asked him to explain so I can get my closure and move on. He said that I should find my closure on my own and he doesn’t care about the trauma and anxiety attacks he caused me. Now, everyday I question where did things go wrong. I can’t explain it to my friends because they don’t really wanna talk about this whole episode since it was a bad experience for all of us. I don’t know how to feel better when someone so close to me used to actually make fun of me with his friends and then he did all this. 

Friends

DEAR FUTURE ME
I REFUSE TO ALLOW MY CHILDEREN TO BATTLE WITH THINGS I DEALT WITH WHEN I WAS A CHILD\TEENAGER. I'M BREAKING ALL CYCLES AND GEN CURSES!!

Children

So i am home alone ,koi nhi h yahan and mujhe esa feel ho rha h jese yeh ghr mujhe nigal jaayega bht lonely feel kr rha hun bas mein or meri tanhaii 

You know what the most weird and hurtful thing is ? When you expect the most basic from someone most close to you and they won't be able to provide that either. 

3am Thoughts

My roommate takes so fucking long to bath.. she only goes to bath after she sees me getting up/ trying to get ready. Everyday we’re late because of her 😑 Yesterday I stopped on the way cause she had to tie her shoelace and because of that we were late 😑 but she’s pretty selfish and wouldn’t do the same for me 

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