Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I dont feel so good about myself…my heart and mind not in the right place because of this jealousy feeling inside my heart…my heart beat so fast because its hurttt so much likee its going to burst out anytime
…I never feel anything like before in my lifetime…this is the first time I ever feel like this…I really am jealous but I don’t have the right to say so…I don’t know what should I do…I don’t know if this is some kind of anxiety or what…But my heart hurt so much when I know that one of my close friend chat and have a call with this girl that I have been talking to for almost 3 years(and maybe have a crush?)…It’s really hurt because its my own fault for not confess my feeling to her when I have the chance to do so…damn…I feel like I really want to cry because its really effect my mental health problem…DAMNNNNNN…I really dont know what I should do…My final exam for my final year is this Wednesday and my mind is really in confusion because I can’t think straight and care for my study…Instead of worrying for my study I got worried with this weird feeling…I think I’ve really fallen for her after a long time staying with her…GODAMMIT…I think I really want to cry but I just can’t…why must this feeling hurt this much…damnnn I really I hate this feeling dude…this is really the first time I feel like this…It’s hurt so mucchhhhhh…babi jooo cibaiii sakit gilaaa hatii…This feeling really ruined my mood…I think I really want to start cursing right now…why bah like this…I fucking hate it…what should I do?I want to stop think about this feeling but I just can’t…