I don't feel much while ma$turb**ing , will i be able to feel something while having s€x as i m getting married in a year or so and i am worried

Its completely ok.
Shouldn't bother u much.

Could be problematic. Better to consult a doctor from now. In one year you'll be fine 

Sexual Health

It's nice to have a friend
By Taylor Swift
What a song ❤️

Body Positivity

I wish there was a way out of this mess.. :(

Insecurity

Worrying won't stop bad stuff from happening. It just keeps you from enjoying the good.

Success

A DAY IN EVERYDAY


Wake up!! With an alarm
Check ma phone
There's no text waiting for you to reply to 
I surprised!! Everytime
A quick check on the texts
Everyone left me on seen
No disappointments 
everyday stuff
Take a peek on everyone's life 
Everyone's happy without me
Everybody has friends except me
Like everyday
Why am I keep getting hurt without any reasons?
I asked to myself many times
But I still get no answers , only deep regrets. 
Don't know the real source of ma pain 
Everyday drowning into the deep abyss of thoughts and sorrow 
Feels so suffocating 
Hearing my own thoughts 
I try to hangout with other ppl whom we call "friends " 
But it's just useless 
The more ppl I talk with 
The more I get isolated and deeper the thoughts I have about myself
Sitting at a public place..... alone
Watching at other people with happy faces
Is soo pretty depressing 
Sipping the coffee time after time 
Just to keep myself look busy
Typing notes so I look social
But actually I'm writing down my thoughts that are useless and nonsense 
It doesn't even makes sense at all
Like .... nothing's wrong with me 
Not even a thing 
I am just overreacting over things that barely happened
Yeah I'm fine , yeah everything's cool
But ......
If I am being honest , I am not okay
Increased the caffeine but this pain wont go away
Thought alcohol would help 
But too scared of getting addicted 
So I didn't even dare to try 
Caffeine is also not effective anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Have I not moved on yet?!
Or is this something else?
Some kind of insecurity 
Some kind of different level of overthinking shit or 
Some kind of regret
I have completely changed 
From how i was to how i am right now
I don't know how to go back
Everything's just slipping through 
Can't let you go 
This sick feeling 
Eating me through inside out
Not exaggerating things but it itself is exaggerated 
So.............
I miss you
I really miss you .




Anxiety

I am feeling so stupid today! I just wanna hide somewhere and never come out of that place! 

Stress

Hi I'm new I couldn't keep it in I middle of night anymore so I signed up and writing this 
I recently had travelled by bus many times was bit crowded  and I went home but due to this outside tea el after long time , had all kinds of negative thoughts ,feelings and depressed and strange things happening and feeling afraid of everthing  around me and all people(family) then again travelled and moved to my aunt home which is bit better but still little the same feeling going on due to which I'm not able to sleep for minute also or not even able to do anything completely feel down for first time and not even able to talk to anyone home don't know how to over come this. 
Writing this is so very hard , don't know what to do 
Please help 

It's been a long time since I have been feeling so worthless, a disgrace to the family, confused about my future whether I would succeed in my future or not, pushing people away even my friends, hating society from the bottom of my heart. Even though I tried to talk to people but it's just that my feeling reaches my mouth but don't come up. I was not this kind of a person I loved everyone, excelling in my academics and no anger issues. Now I feel so good to be alone in my room and now I don't feel any kind of emotion even if I am doing something that made me happy once. It's been a long time that I have been telling my self that everything's gonna be okay but it feels as if things are falling apart. I am tired of pushing myself. What's wrong with me?

Mental Health

Im not sure what to type in here.. U have no idea how badly i need a platfrm like this whr i can share somethn.. Thanks to a reel.. A girl has mentioned this is how she is able to feel normal.. Im not sure anyone is gonna read this.. Maybe ull just go through the first line n may skip it..
Going through a lot lately.. I feel like i dont get enough space or time for myself.. Gettn out of the room.. Shuttn dwn my laptop.. Is kinda unimaginable fr me.. For small small reasons i want to fight or scream at anyone..  Really feeling pity towards my friends n family fr tolerating this sudden attitude in me.. Yes i do have people around me to hear wat i say.. But no one to listen n understnd it from the way i do..
Used to stuck with the word 'YES' for so long.. N lately im fond of saying 'NO' to watever comes in my way.. N coz of tat so many conflicts.. I wish i was the same like before.. Zero percent confident im..
I donno whr i left that energetic enthusiastic person i knew earlier.. Is that person searching for me as well??!

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