I don't feel like justifying myself anymore when I know that I haven't done anything wrong. But I always get misunderstood and it makes me feel bad. Since ,new year is coming I hope I let go of my feelings towards those people (my friends) and focus more on self love . 

Friends

Ur fav Indian cuisine? 😍😁

Healthy Food

Sab kyu uske sath pyaar mai padh jaate hai, mujhe gussa aa raha hai😠😠😫😫

3am Thoughts

Yo anyone up ❤️

Dreams

last night I tried to end my life. I really wanna hurt myself right now I can’t do this anymore I’m terrified of what’s going to happen I don’t want to do it anymore I’m so tired. I need to relapse im done 

Depression

Another day has passed. I’m trying my best to keep myself in check. It’s weird. Like during the day I try to stay on track but emotionally, I feel like crap. And it’s actually getting in the way of my efforts to study for my upcoming exams, despite my efforts to stay busy. During the evening when I go out, I feel a lot better and normal, but then I wake up the next day and the same stuff happen. I’m trying my all to keep it together, but I just want to make all these feelings go away. I hope I don’t break down or something. But writing on here actually has a therapeutic effect on me, so this is the third day in a row of me doing so. If anyone wants to know what’s wrong, you can read my other 2 posts. It was also brought to my attention that a lot of Indian people use this site, but I’m not Indian, so thought I mention it. :D

Stress

Stop, believe, breathe

Affirmations

Any music band name ideas??

Music

These last days were challenging. Here’s the deal, I have history with a girl back home but It didn’t work out (this happened last year - 2021). I’m studying abroad for one semester, she’s doing that as well. So for a strange reason, before I got into this new country, we reconnected but in a very confuse way. We talked like friends but all of a sudden I started to notice more interest in her as soon as I left the country and it is completely weird, she was talking the same way she talked when we liked each other. So, I’m thinking that it’s possible to talk again and maybe get in a relationship with her. But here’s the thing, it’s uncertain! I’m studying in a country where she is nowhere near and all the talking is through WhatsApp. The difference in time is difficult and obviously there is more stuff to do when you are outside of your country. So there is days when I’m noticing interest from her and there is days where she’s just replying. I know that it sounds like I’m obsessed or something like that. But I really like this girl, she’s so kind, intelligent and it’s a very interesting person. It’s someone that shares a lot of things in common with me and maybe I’m overthinking things because the time that takes her to reply it’s a lot due to our time difference. But yeah, I just need someone to tell this because these thoughts are making me sad everyday. And the thing is, whenever she replies, all of those thoughts disappears. 


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