I could have shown you all the scars at the start
But that was always the most difficult part.

It's always difficult to share ourselves to others

Music

I’m feeling the urge to self harm :(((( 

Depression

One of the reasons of self harm is childhood trauma. Children who are abused, roughly punished, beaten or ignored usually try to harm themselves. It is important for the parents to give unconditional to the children so they dont feel rejected.

Mental Health

Soo everytime i made a mistake or hurt someone i slit my wrist everytime and tbh i feel good when blood flows out of my body 
I know i am psycho 

Self Harm

I wanna i wanna killsomething. I wanna mhrder myself in the most brutal way imaginable. i want to carve anhole in mystomach and pull out my ibtestines bake them and eat them and hang myself with them. i wantto my nails to dig into my skin do deep they come in contact with my internal organs. I wanna kill myslef I WANT to feel my bones being crushed to the ground I want this all to end i want to kIll myself. I want to slowly burn myself from toenail to the last hair of mineI HATE NYSELF I RUIN EVERYTHING I HOPE I STOP BURDERNING EVERYONE FOR ONCEMLET ME GO LET ME GO IM so tired I want to cut my skin again I dont hsve my balde tberes no raxor theres no anything  Im a burden to everyone EVERYONE VEVEYRONE EVRYWORB im gonna I hate it it it it it it it it it------------I want to gauge ny eyes out i want to bleed 

3am Thoughts

I want to cut my vocal cords.

I think I will cut again, It been some time since I last did so but I feel so stressed and irritated, I can´t deal with this pressure. I want to feel something other than stress right now, I keep tugging on my hair so I can feel the pain but it is not enough.



So, I am 85% that I'm gonna get beat while tied to a tree cuz the person I sent the note to said that I said to g harm herself. (WHICH I DIDN'T!!) And I have to talk to my principal AND the counselor. I wanna cut so bad. Just my luck......  

School

I had to lie about the cuts on my arms, I said I fell into a bush 🙈 I hate having to lie about things. Only 3 people know what actually happened and they are trying to help me. I've been tasked with writing a sort of mood journal. So far it doesn't look good it's just so dark, the urge to cut isn't getting any better. The suicidal thoughts won't stop coming, and I know exactly where and how deep to cut to just end it all. It's getting harder to resist the urge to just do it. Things don't seem to want to get better. I'm trying I am but I don't know how much more of this I can take 

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