i changed myself to be the person you insisted i became and now i don’t even know who i am 

my clothing choices, my friends, my own damn thoughts. i could never disagree with him. my food choices, everything. 

3am Thoughts

I've read something beautiful today, it says " stop thinking you are not qualified, not fit or not experienced enough. Growth takes place when you start doing stuff you are not qualified to do."

Motivation

The only complete or perfect man on this planet ever lived....Krishna...the man of immense knowledge, love , dedication, compassion, sacrifice and courage.....A happy Krishna Janmashtami to you all..... Krishna's blessings is with you all guyzz and girlzz.....🧡🧡

Hello. I'm new here. My first post.Feeling sad and low
Does this happened to you, someone is being so bad and toxic toward to you and still you have no hard feelings towards them., You just hope they get better . Deep down you know you can't be friends like before after whatever you been through 

Feeling so anxious having a thought  tht i hv to face so many people together. 😔

Anxiety

I am too optimistic.... to the point where I just make myself suffer even more.
What should I do?

Frustration

I don't think this will makes me better what do you guys think 

I just don't know how to express myself, I cry every night, it's really difficult for me.


Anger Issues

Story time. Actually more like life anecdotes - 
I was in 9th grade when I got a reality check that I am not as smart as others around me. And also that I was not as smart as I thought I was. I failed my 9th grade science finals and for the very first time I had ever failed a subject. I was heartbroken. I still remember that day. We came back from our trip and science paper was the only paper which was left to check. When we came back from the school trip, I got a punch in the stomach. 28.5/80. I tried with all my might to get the score up to 32 to keep myself afloat but teachers refused. I was holding my tears back because I didn't want people to see me cry. And I was in a lot of denial. I went home. Told my ex best friend that I fucked up my exam and she was shook too. She had also flunked her exams. And then, she tried with all her might to cheer me up, but I was caught by mum when she saw me in tears. She started to get all suspicious and I told her I was crying because I was upset with how poorly I scored. I didn't tell her how I flunked the paper, but she figured it out. The next day we receive a call from principal's office to discuss my "low scores" and my entire cover was blown. I cried in front of Vice principal and I was just so upset with myself. I was given a ultimatum to score more than 40/80 on the paper. I felt so alone and tired that everyone referred to me as the stupid one. Everyone was against me. Even on the day of the exam, I was walking past my friends who were promoted to 10th grade and they saw and wished me luck, I felt so ashamed. It was the worst year of my life. My dad was drinking, and that's when his alcoholism began. I felt helpless. So when I compare things with how bad they are, I always use a reference scale which "like 9th grade" 
I feel like I am back in 9th grade once again, because the year hasn't even fully begun yet and it feels like "9th grade"


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