Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I can’t rest, if I don’t have any things to do planned, I wake up anxious. I am working in tcs since June 2022 but has very minimal or no work.
I am always doing courses and keeping myself busy. But still I feel anxious. Doing courses doesn’t serve me in any way. Last week I had some work and at the end of the day I was happy as I did something and contributed. But now again I have very minimal tasks and don’t know what to do. It’s my office time, I can’t even do anything else, if I do something else it makes me anxious and not doing anything is not an option. I was always a bright student, never ever I think that I will be in this situation.
I always keep myself busy with learning but not able to build something on my own, don’t know what I should do. I am hating myself for this. I am thinking that one should not. All my friends are in different cities enjoying their life and I feel like I am stuck and I don’t belong here.
I want to achieve something in lyf, do something, but here I am stuck since last 1.7 year, I just can’t think straight now.