3am Thoughts

 want to love myself more but I'm overthinking too much. 

Teenagers

Days feel meaningless as it passes. Life is monotonous. Wake up, go to work, eat, sleep, repeat.

I used to have a lot of friends. (I say used not because they're not friends of mine, they're all abroad) most of the days I hang out with no one but myself. I smoke. I listen to songs, I write poetry.

All I do is just fill up this void. But nothing helps. It's come to a point where you know it all makes sense of what the present is but also at the same time you tend to ask, "What the fuck is this life?"

Anybody feel me?



Hello there!!
I watched a movie few days back.... the story line is way to awesome where a princess leaves everything behind to just live a soldier who earns 600rs per month.. isn't it awesome... all it means that  love is in air isn't it?
But i feel this doesn't happen in real life!!!

Life

lately ive been feeling as though i need to exit the world. even though i am not able to go through with it, i always feel like i want to. it's like the world has been testing my patience a lot recently and i don't know how much more i can handle until i break. i don't cry and i don't show that i am bothered by it cause if i do then people will just treat me as if i get hurt by everything. its so difficult and there is no one i can talk to. 

Depression

Endukayya evening avagane ila low ga feel avutunnanu😫😫😫

Other

Very lonely and sad 😢

Breakup

I have been slowly becoming a recluse. I used to be a more cheerful person on the outside despite the fact I've been battling my inner demons from a long time, but now I've become more silent and anti-social. And I don't like it at all, because it feels like I'm slowly drifting away from all the things that used to bring me happiness before. One of the reasons why I have slowly become anti-social is because many people say that my voice is thin, sharp that it hurts sometimes. So I don't talk until I feel completely safe and comfortable with the person, and the person is willing to listen to me, which are very rare instances. 

To the rest of others, I look like a rude and arrogant person, and I don't blame them at all. 

Is there anything that I can do to help my situation, because I hate my voice but I don't want to. This voice has made me lose a lot of things I cherished, including the fact that I couldn't take part in debates when I grew up because teachers said my voice wasn't suitable (because it was sharp and childish), even if the content I compiled as well as my pronounciation was better. I don't want to lose anything anymore, but I just can't stop hating my voice.

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