I can't do this..... I can't let people love me... I feel like I can't be healed.... I can't do this... I just wish I could vanish.... I want to vanish

Sanu

Yes bro sometimes everything feels useless and it seems logical to be vanished

3am Thoughts

Sometimes people hurt me without realizing it and i never say anything at all bc i don’t want them to think i’m being too sensitive or that i’m overreacting, or that i’m a weak person, or that i’m insecure etc… 
But it really does affect me a lot, I also don’t know why, i shouldn’t let such small things get to me but i always do and so many times i find myself holding back tears. Most of the time it’s over something very stupid and something that shouldn’t make me feel hurt, at least not that much.. idk why i’m like this, I wish i wasn’t so sensitive. 

Other

I simply wanted to drift away.

Depression

Feeling like I'm drowning....
Just have to survive looking up. 

I feel lonely, I am only 20 years old and I guess I have felt lonely most of the time. I feel everybody is pushing me back, even my family. I just want to go somewhere far from everyone and everything. I may not be happy running away but I don't think I can go like this anymore. 
And I am not at all confident in myself. I want to do big things but I am so scared of hurting my family's feelings. I know my dad wants me to live a normal and happy life, but that's something I don't want. I want to do big things but I am not confident in myself. This is killing me. I feel like I am the worst a person can ever be or like fit for nothing or useless person. I do not know how long I can go like this but I can't manage for too long also.




Exhausted

Is it mandatory in everyone's life that there be a moment where you stand and re-evaluate everything that's going on? Is it compulsory to have a breakdown? This doesn't feel right.  

Idk why im feeling overwhelmed? 😫

I just need to be heard ..... i want to scream my lungs out i wanna let em know i am tired but i dont have the heart to disappoint soo many eager faces who think i am some1 which i am not.

day 6 of quitting porn - i can feel a bit more energetic than 3 days ago and i can do 12 pushups instead of 8 and 1 chin up . Definitely feeling it . 

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