I cant count now i also dont know how much he lay to me .....he is my first love .... Is very hard for me ... I dont know where to start but i never feel this kind of pain inside me ......what to write what to say i dont know ....... I want to be happy .....ater 1 year also i am at the same place where i start..... When will this pain end ..... I never did something wrong..... 

I feel your pain. I'd suggest you to stop overthinking about it. Pain is temporary and every suffering has its end. I pray you heal with every breath.

Cheating

Hey, I woke up crying today. The guy that have been in love with my whole life told me a couple of days ago he did not want a relationship with me.  We have been friends for almost close to 20 years. And this is not the first time he told me this but it hurts like the first time. I really want to move on from this and never look back. I feel like  he said things that made me feel that one day we were going to actually try to make things work but lately he had been acting like he was trying to push me away. And when I finally poured my heart out to him he shut me down like he always do. He said he wasn't ready. And I should have expected that but it hurts so bad to hear those words come out his mouth. This time it hurts in a different way. I dont know if it's because we are older or the fact that I feel like no one wants me. I have had relationships with guys but I always compare them to him. I just want to get pass this so I can stop crying.

Depression

An year back i had a relationship which was so good but didnt last much...because he kind of ghosted me after a month..then in that case i had a rebound relationship and it was a disaster..i broke up after 6 mnths ..In the previous relationship there wasnt a breakup..we just lost touch..he tried to contact me after one month,he explained his situation..he was in a bad period etc. but i was into this rebound relationship..and i was angry towards him...recently i contacted him again...we still have the connection after this whole year..he sys he wants to correct the mistake..he regrets leaving me ..i am confuesd

Relationships

Yar we hardly talk. He is studying medical but it don't feel like he is into me. He sleeps till 10 p.m. so no text at night. Mostly I am the one who initiate the message and I am the one who calls him. We are not into relationship still. We both just know that we both like each other. Infact I am the one who confessed and is always chasing him. Idk how wrong or right I am.

Love

How do you get over someone you have strong feelings for. I'm having a hard time getting over him and this is just worsened by the fact that he likes me back but we could never be together due to my parents so I feel like the best thing I could do for myself and him as well is to stop having feelings for him. 

Confusion

I don't know where to start. It's been too chaotic that I don't seem to know on which side the tornado is. 
A. I'm getting great opportunities for designing, which after deliverance, it jus slips away.
B. My ex (prolly the love of my life), is back in my life. But I don't know how we are. We had a very dreadful breakup which was next to heinous, and he is back, trying these tactics and  hurting me by saying different girls names, that uhm... He is doing. Everytime. I have been strong and I don't react much. But how am I supposed to tell him that I'm still there. .. there's lot to say and loads of context involved... 
I wrote something for him which I don't know he will ever receive so putting it here:
Hey, 
I know I can be a difficult person to love. 
For everything that has happened in the past I'm a compilation of the remnants, glued together whose adherence is seizing to oblivion now. The part that will always follow me and keep hurting ain't gonna burn away, it'll kindle time to time, and no matter how much I try to keep it burried and move a god damn crate on it, it's gonna crack open, it'll unleash in a fathomable way that no force could stop, this could go for days or weeks and no matter how hard I try to conceal and don't feel, I will. On those days I'm not a nice person, I'm barely a human at that point, but what scares the most of the unrequited love I have for you and it's not gonna go away. Because i loved you, and when I did, it was with every fiber of my body, every drop of my soul, every quench of my blood and every ounce of my breath, because you babe mean everything where the world doesn't anymore. The veracity of how loud the melancholic soul is roaring with leaps of flame is going high with every sigh of your name. 
And this will scare you, because even my fragile heart gets the uncalled wave of shocks in the masquerade of ache and crying and wallowing. But will you stick... This time...? Will you hold my hand to "here's forever more to go"? Not everything is meant to be, they say but what if it is? I'll take you with all your imperfections, because you darling are my angel, my knight in shining armour, my beacon of hope, my wings of joy. I gave my all to you, once and once I heal, I'll give it again and again and again, till I'm strong enough to not go for again. 

Will you? 


My ex boyfriend of 2 years was the best and the worst relationship I've ever had. He made me the happiest but also he was toxic at times which he still doesn't realise. Ive never felt more insecure about myself before. He did a lot of things for me too, sacrificed a lot too but also pushed me to the edge before coming to rescue me. I know I'll have to move on now. It's not been long but I still sometimes want to go back to him. Which I really shouldn't. Ik I'll find someone better and that I won't have to put up with so much negativity just for the bare minimum. But I really miss his presence...I feel lonely and now the future is so unclear and scary that I don't want to be a part of it anymore 


Breakup

I'm a very private, very feeling person. I don't trust people easily, after a very traumatic incident with someone I trusted a lot. It's okay, scars heal. There was one thing that happened a while back that just filled me with this surge of happiness and reassured my faith in loving myself and being loved. 
A very nice friend of mine, whom I had just started getting acquainted with, told me, just out of the blue one day, that he wanted to listen to me play the violin. I'm an amateur violinist and have never felt comfortable about having anybody listen to it. But he insisted, very sweetly, making me feel at ease for sharing this part of myself with him. He said there was something very intimate about having someone play an instrument for you. Or sing. Or paint. Or write. Or just about share a piece of what they've poured into through their art. I had not met this person- yet intimacy to him, and surprisingly to me, meant having to share this moment with each other. 
He told me it meant a lot to him that I played for him, just as it meant a lot to me that I could do that, for him. If only trust came through in art, I'd never have to shut my heart out ever again. Here's hoping ❤️

Happy

This is like first time ever . Meet a guy through a known aunty . We meet for 1 month. I got attached with him pretty easily as we were of same field and I got easily speak with him about anything.However, he ended up specifying that he is unsure of this whole marriage thing . Now the problem is I send him msg where I vent out and said final bye . He responded too with final bye . After this I again called him to check how is he doing and coping with it. He said he is doing okay . And shared that he needs to fix his mind as he feels that this thing is not made for him.The most problematic thing is I keep missing him. I keep remembering the moments and talks . I just can’t forget him. I spoke with my frds , cried but still it keeps hitting my mind. 

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