I can tell myself all day " be heartless, f*%# them " but in reality I have a big heart and can't treat people bad.

The word "Optimism" is so inspiring because life always goes on, you have to be optimistic about your life and this world. Never lose hope, I know you're dealing with so many things but you need to understand the one thing about life, it never stops for anyone.
You should work towards your future and be optimistic. Everything will be good, think about it longer. Do not worry about a temporary situation. 
everything will be fine, just works toward the right- Stay Optimistic

Personal Growth

LETTERS I COULDN`T SEND TO THEM (PART1 )                                                               I dont know how but i love you and i hate you ,i need you and i`m better offf without you ,i miss you and i`m moving on ,i don`t know how to explain how all these thoughts are going on in my mind at the same time ,i don`t know if i want you back or not ,i don`t know what i`m missing ,i know it`s you but i don`t know if it`s your memories or you as a person ,it came as a shock to me when you left and i think i`m still in the denail stage cause from the very beggining you said you were never going anywhere ,you promised to stay forever and i believed you forgotting of the possibility  that they could be just empty words said by another new person to me .
I know you regret everything you did to me the last time we met and i could sense the guilt from your eyes while you could see the betrayal i felt from you through mine .I dont know if we`re good for each other or not but someone`s gotta know the answer right ? and since it was not me ,that means it must have been you and you left which means we weren`t good for each other ,then why do i think that maybe we could have been the gateaway to each others problems ,why did it hurt so much on saying goodbye that day ,why did we hug so tight that day like we were giving each other strenght for the oncoming vicious  days  ,why did it feel like we didn`t want each other to part ,like if it was in our hands we would run away ,from everything and everywhere in that one instant and just have each other ,and we both know we`ld be okay with just that ,with each other 
You`re that precious treasure those wise people advice to keep in your life for as long as possible hidden from the outside world cause you only find such people once and maybe i`m a fool to not have listened ,i was afraid to lose you ,i was insecure that you`ld find someone better and leave me ,i wanted to tell you how much you meant ,it only mattered to me what you thought of me ,i was jealous when you`ld name someone else a lot cause i thought soon i`ld be replaced by them ,i was scared that they would mean more to you than i mean to you , i was terefied of ever losing you cause you made me believe in myself and when you left i thought that maybe i really was nothing ,why did you had to make me the center of your life only to snatch that away from me and make me feel absolutely worthless and useless but still i wish sometimes that maybe it was more of the right person and wrong timing thing and someday we`ll meet again wwith the right timing and be the right people for each other 

I wish i could have told you all this the day we met for the last time ,i wish that we`ld meet again and i tell you this one day but till then i think i`ll just keep writing to remmember it for when the day comes 



Teenagers

Sometimes we know where we are headed. Sometimes we don't. The days where we don't know what we want, and we just go with the flow, are the days that actually make the best of our memories. 

Other

How do I forget bad memories?

Conflict

Living without him after 3 long years of being together is hardest than I ever thought
Waking up and taking my phone just to reply to his sweet good morning notes but realizations hit and yk its no more
Goin to bed and getting notifications hoping it's your good night message but no
Not celebrating the monthly anniversaries on 22nd as we did dates every month on that date
Not sending him pics to pick up your outfits because he's probably choosing hers
Not venting out a bad day because he's no longer there to listen to you
No more flowers
No more sweet talks
No more caring 
it's been six months since you left 
I still hate you for what you did 
But I fuckin love you 
Come back to me
Hug me like you did when we met 
And promise me to never leave as you did always 
What did you say? 
We are forever 
Well. I guess. you weren't true 
WHY??
Well you remember what it is today?
HAPPY 4TH YEAR ANNIVERSARY BABY
I miss you
more than ever
I hope she keeps you happy like I did
I hope she sings you to sleep because it stopped your nightmares 
I hope you remember me once today
ik I don't matter to you now
But I love you
<3

Breakup

I know everyone here are legit souls who seeks answers and comfort and share and help. So, I ask you legit people this question - Do we get what we deserve?

Anxiety

After all things happen with ourselves is it fine to carry hope???

Loss

"losing all hope was freedom"
I want to follow this but somehow cant let go of the hope. the optimism in me refuses to die even tho its so little. does anybody have any advice on how to lose hope?

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