I can never be enough for anyone, no one ever make me feel like that, they always make me feel like I am stupid and know nothing about anything.

Someone just said to me you are stupid and cut the call., and said call me back when you have anything to say. Angrily. 

Insecurity

Is it okay to love someone endlessly who's much more older than you???? Does age gap really matter?? 

3am Thoughts

I am a simple boy
I love dancing and driving
I love music listen
I have no girl friend 

Love

Someone recommend me a good show to watch. I prefer something along the lines of mystery, action, fun. Also I only speak English, so please don’t send me Indian shows. 😅

I am in a triangular mode. Trying to figure out which way to go. ￼￼

Overthinking

If you never heal from what hurt you, you'll bleed on people who didn't cut you.

I feel really numb and worthless. I have this weird thing where I can't really identify and label emotions.
Like whenever something happens, like a fight with a friend or family member or something bad happens, I usually tell my partner about it. But mostly it's just factual stuff, like this is what I said, then they said this and all.
And then he asks me how do I feel about it. And I never have an answer. I find it so difficult to know what I'm feeling. And I think it's the reason I cry so much. Because I don't know what emotion I'm feeling, I don't know how to tackle it and then I just cry like how babies do. I have also spoken to my therapist about it but she said that "I'm blocking my emotions". I don't know how to explain this to people. Like, when I tried explaining this to my partner, he said, "They are feelings. How can you not know what you're feeling?"
I do understand that it can be difficult for anyone to fathom when I say that I don't know what I'm feeling. But it is what it is. And it gets really exhausting sometimes because there's so much happening and I have no idea what emotion it is and how to deal with it.
Am I weird? Is this kinda thing normal? 

Mental Health

Day 18 of praying. 

Affirmations

⚠️⚠️Confused btw two option ⚠️⚠️
•plz read full and help me frnds•
     🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏.    
 Antey nen chinnapudu nundi 4th class nundi hostel lo padesaaru .... bullying ki chaala effect ayya ...ipdu nen degree completed ...na 7th class varuku nen manchi student ni ...apdu nundi nen chadavadam manesa ...manesa antey inka complete ga ...nill asalu ...mobile use cheskoni undatam ey na Pani ...exam mundhu roju Edo ala chusi .. raasesey vaadni ...9th nundi personal mobile undedi ..nyt 11 nundi 5 daaka ...asalu adhey inka prapanchham ...apdu nundi antey almost 8 yrs nundi complete ga comfort zone lo ney jeevitham gadipesa ...em chesav ra antey ...just girls , mandhu , rides ala...ee sarada lu mathramey jarigaii life lo ...oka goal kaani , oka ambition kaani ledu ....ee 2022 lo buddhi ochindi ....Regret feel ayya , realise ayya ...ela undeyvaadni ela ipoya ani ...ipdu 2021 lo resolution petukunna gym povaali dream body thechukovaali ...mental health kuda manchiga cheskovaali ...ani evevo anukunna ...one month ayyaka ... typhoid ochi ..mottham collapse ayindi ...aa one month gym chesinapdu ..changes chusa ..kaani antha poindi ..malla ipdu degree completed (March 2022) kaani backlogs unnai 7 ...intlo 2 unnai adi kuda april lo unnai ani chepina ....ipdu april lo velali .....(2022 March) lo exams results release ayyay.. backlogs unnai jobs try chesina avvadu , Mac cheydam kuda avvadu ani ..Edina demand lo unna course nerchukunta Ani intlo June nundi adgitey ... December lo oppukunnaru ... Hyderabad velladaniki (maadhi vizag) so elagola kasta PADI ochesa hyd ...coding offline lo nerchukuntey ney ardam avuddi ...mana frnds kuda clsmates itey Inka bagntadi doubts ochina ani ...intlo cheppi hyd ochina kaani ikada ochinaaka ...nen institute ki 4)km dhooram lo na frnd oka abbai unnadu ...vaadu room chusa annad ...na childhood frnd 7 yrs tarvatha touch lo ki ochi ..kalisinam ....so veedi daggara untunna ...ikada na life naaku kavali ani ..8 yrs ayyaka ...2023 lo resolution pettuknna ...kaani ikada ochinaaka ...3 mnths ipoindi inkaa nenem piikaledu atleast start cheyledu ...excuses cheykudadu anukuntunna kaani ... institute 40 km dhooram mrng 7-9 ..kastam ani online lo vintunna ...antha dhooram nundi ochi .( Atleast ipdu nen class vini 20 days avtundi ) idhi kuda cheyyatledy .....2nd thing gym podam anukuntunna ...kaani idhi kuda cheyyatledy ( cause na frnd dagara bike undi gym ikada nundi 2km ) vaadu velinapdu vaaditho veldam le ani ....naak nenu nachatkedu bro ..inni daridraaly inka chaala unnai ayina siggu ledu naaku ...thittukntuna 

• na burra ipdtiki use cheydam manesi 8yrs avtundi ...thuppi pattesindi bro ..honest ga 🥺🥺💔💔even suicide thoughts ostaii naaku .. overthinking valla .. financial prblms valla ..mental ga I'm not stable ...

⛔⛔⛔ipdu naaku only 2 choices bro ....
Confuse avtuna em cheddam ani ..
1.( Institute dagara lo room chuskuntey):
• nen coding nerchukovachu
• intlo oka nammakam untundi job twaraga koditey ...cause already memu financial ga kncm ibbandi lo unnam .
•baaga crowded place ..na comfort zone odili new frnds ( including coding frnds )
• comfort zone odhalaganu
• gym povachu dagara loney untundi ..

2nd option( nen ikada room lo untey ):
• na frnds untaaru ..
• nak sometimes gym diet ki ayina, chinna chinna money prblms ochina ..vedu chuskuntaadu ..
• frnd dagara bikes unnai ..naaku bike rides , nyt rides antey pichi .....


Ipdu ee renditlo ee option select cheskuntey better bro ...plz honest ga nannu rendu thittina ..parledu ...kottina parledu ...help cheyyandi plzz 🙏🙏

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