I can literally feel my mental health deteriorating, day by day. Living has become extremely hard. One moment, Iโm happy, beaming with joy and another moment, Iโm torn apart by my own will. I hate everything and just want to yell and scream at the top of my lungs.
I have a trigger, which makes me anxious and paranoid, which is people yelling and dogs barking simultaneously. That, I guess probably goes back to my childhood. Everyday, I feel like oversleeping, and if I do, I feel a sense of guilt running over like a roadroller. I hate school, I hate work and I hate myself. It feels like everything I have done and everyday of my life has gone into vain. Iโm trying. I really am. Nothing is working. I feel, whatโs the wordโฆnumb. and sad. And stupid. And irritated. And afraid. And alone.
U r not alone Iโm listening to u nowโฆ
Idk if these works I myself am a lazy person no mood to do anything lots of work pending
Try keeping a schedule from morning to night , reading good book , meditation or watch movie or series main thing is keep yourself occupied so that u wonโt divert ur mind๐
Heyyy! Do you want someone to talk to ??.
Thank you so much for replying, I really appreciate it. Iโm just tired of it all. Itโs like I hope to see the sun shining everyday but it still feels like a dark weary night, which goes on for eternity. I am afraid, confused, unhappy and at a really bad position in life ๐
See You Need to understand that life a mixture of the light and the dark. See Trust the Quote : Itโs a Phase, Everything shall pass by. Okay!
Read books and work on yourself.
Hey there, it sounds like you are dealing with a really difficult time right now and it sounds like it is just exhausting. Loud noises can be so difficult to deal with like people shouting and it is so normal to experience anxiety over this. Iโm not sure if this is something you have thought about yet but I would seriously recommend looking for someone to support you through this all. When I was much younger I dealt with many of the same things and was so adamant that I didnโt need therapy or support. I wanted to keep my feelings anonymous to the world. I have been in therapy for about two and a half years now and it has changed my life. You are strong and life gets really tough and sometimes you just need that support to help you to keep going. There are so many resources online nowadays, charities and online services that offer therapy if you donโt want your parents to know or you donโt have the funding. You arenโt alone, I promise. There are people out there to help. You have been so resilient so far. Keep going. We are all here for you. Sending so much love and support to you right now <3 x
jay @jay12
Do you wanna talk about it?
I really appreciate your offering. I havenโt really heard those words, in a while (almost never). Thank you for asking. Itโs just I feel like a loser and my thoughts are incontrollable. They are so mean, rude, discouraging, as if like Iโm my biggest enemy and hater. Itโs really painful ๐
jay @jay12
You are not a losser and if you want to talk we can.
Heyy. ! I would like to offer some advice. !
But do you have any friends ??