I binged and purged again and now I feel disgusting but I feel so free

It was my first time purging in like a month so now I feel guilty

Anorexia

Is overthinking, stopped eating in middle of a meal because I think I am going to get fat, whole body shaking because I talked to someone for 2 mins, losing interest in everything is it normal?

Anxiety

Hi guys, how do you overcome binge eating??

Binge Eating

I feel like a skeleton day by day seeing myself thinking down the more I eat the more weight I lose 

I have no eating disorder 

Body Dysmorphia

I can’t stop eating when I am alone at home, today I binged all day and I feel so bad about myself 

Eating Disorder

I just don’t want to do this. Recovery from bulimia fucks you up. I’ve been trying but cutting keeps calling out to me now. Ending this misery is a better option. People will cry but they’ll move on. I want to see the blood slowing flowing out and ending everything. I’m trying but is it worth it? Just… how do make it stop. My father and sister are the only ones I’m worried about. I’ve started to wish I could stay forever just for them, but what am I even if not just a waste of space and someone who eats just to purge it out. 

Suicidal Ideation

HELLO I NEED HELP
TG *EATING DISORDER *

I don’t know what’s wrong with me but I’m not keeping a healthy eating habit, since I just traveled from a country, I have to stay in quarantine therefore I cannot go out and eat, however I have lots of food/ingredients at home. For about a few days now that I have been unintentionally starving myself, not because I fear weight gain, but because I don’t find food at home appealing to me right now so I’ve been stalling eating, I can’t come up with something I want to eat and other foods at home just seems boring to me even though I am physically hungry but mentally I do not want to eat, I’m trying to chew on some bread but I can’t eat a meal. Is this a type of eating disorder?? How do I fix this? I have ADHD by the way and I’m not on meds coz they make me want food even less.

I have a really toxic binge eating problem. I am in 11th standard (currently living in a hostel). Whenever I feel stressed out, i only think about junk food. Whenever i am in class, i think about which snack I'm going to buy while going back home. I am here for one and half months only and i have spent almost 2000/- in these junk trashy food. I can't even stop myself. I binge eat all the time. I want to get healthy. I wanna feel confident. I want to get slimmer but i wish I could help myself.

TRIGGER WARNING: Eating disorders/implied eating disorder mentions, self-harm

I hate this. I hate it. I hate this so much. Why can't I just... have a normal relationship with food. It's always binge one day and then barely eat anything for the rest of the week. Why do I have to feel so guilty when I eat something? Why can't I just be normal for once? I haven't checked my weight at all, but its probably the same maybe even higher. I'm bruising pretty quickly and its starting to get pretty cold even though fall is barely here. I hate looking at myself. I don't want this anymore. I hate this. Why can't I just stop doing this to myself? I've managed to convince my parents and my friends and even my therapist that I'm getting better, but I'm struggling so much. I don't really feel safe talking to anybody about it except a few people. I want to get help but what if I get sent to a psych ward? Hah- it took me 2 hours to eat an entire bowl of chips because I was chewing so slowly. Will I even get better at this point? I'm so obsessed with calories and I haven't even touched most of the food in the cabinets. I'm so close to just taking a blade and dragging it along my skin. I know that's helped before. So maybe it'll help again. When will this end? Please please please somebody anybody whatever divine force or being out there please make it stop. 

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