I been feeling very bipolar like i can't choose like if i have trust issues or it's jus that one person i can't trust and like i hate being bipolar

Anxiety

I have severe mood swings.....my friends won't understand this.....They say this is just a phase......I've been having these mood swings since the time I started to memorize.This Quarantine severely damaged my mental health.....I'm always depressed.....it's been weeks since i smiled.There's this rage and irritability running in my mind.I don't have anyone to talk.Anyone wanna talk with me.I'm Harsha/male/20.

Bipolar Disorder

Honestly, I’m everywhere. I’m bipolar and my episodes are happening so frequently and much fast switches than the past- why my meds were working. I don’t think they are now and I have to talk to my doctor about it, lots of anxiety tho

Day 170 of writing journal entries.

I am like 90% sure that I’m bipolar. I had reason to suspect I have it because of my symptoms, so I took SEVERAL online tests, and every single one was very sure I had bipolar disorder. The main thing is that I have random spikes of happiness for no reason as well as the opposite where I feel awful for no reason. It’s very severe though it isn’t just normal mood swings.

I’ll literally go from jumping up and down, bouncing off the walls, dancing with happiness one day, to feeling like jumping off a bridge the next. It’s mostly random but the bad moods usually follow after a spike in my happiness, which is another symptom of bipolar. 

I’m in a good mood right now, which is why this news doesn’t upset me to much, but I worry for what follows. I’ll follow my own advice though, happiness is happiness, don’t overthink it, just enjoy it!

Personal Growth

I am depressed and cut out. I often think I might be bipolar, but I don't have what it takes to tell anyone.
The reason I am what I am is the loss of a special friend. Haven't been able to overcome her death; It's been 9years. Nothing intrigues me anymore. I hope that one day I go to sleep and never have to wake up and feel this pain and that being through happiness or death.

PTSD

How do you tell your parents/therapist that you think you are bipolar without sounding like you’re over reacting or just being like a 12 year old self diagnosed Emily if you know what I mean?

i remember the first time i thought about hurting myself, it was in late december in the car, i got so scared and so sad way too quick. in that one moment i thought of smashing my head into something and hurting myself further more blah blah blah. i was always the person to say "id never hurt myself, i wouldnt even think of it" and there i was. everything before then and now has just been downhill. i was also the person to say "therapy is stupid i dont believe in it", and recently, i want to go to therapy. im not so familiar with all the therapy stuff like where to go or what type of therapist, its a lot to take in. im also worried by the fact of asking my mum and her boyf for me to see a therapist, i see the way they treat people that are lgbtq+ or are depressed and thats taken away my comfort. i dont know wether im depressed or anything, like its hard to tell if ive felt it or not or to know exactly what it feels but itd just be nice to know. i can never tell my emotions apart and that makes me sad/angry alone. im glad that so far i havent hurt myself or done any damage to my body but im scared for me saying "i wouldnt hurt myself" switch up. if that makes sense.

Confusion

Is anyone married or in a relationship with someone who is bipolar? My partner/husband of 21 years is and I’m just having the hardest time finding the strength to stay in this marriage, but I’m also not strong enough to end it. It’s all on me, I know that. 

I'm desperate. After 6 years of dealing with major depressive disorder, quite unsuccessfully, I was recently diagnosed as bipolar. After that, the psychiatrist suggested we changed the treatment. It has been about 5 weeks since then, and I just feel horrible. I don't want to feel like this anymore. I've been keeping closely in touch with him and my therapist, and they both suggest that we keep at it until we see better results. But, I feel like I might fail this semester at Uni, and that I'll never be able to get a job, or have good friends. I had a nightmare yesterday and I woke up longing for someone who could help me. But, I fear no one can help me. I am not at risk, and have a great support system. I'd like to know if someone has gone through something similar, and if there are some words of encouragement or tips, books, songs, movies, really anything that helped through this process. Many thanks. 

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