I am very little away from finally collapsing. I longer know my strengths my ship is sinking and i can feel the water coming in everyday.
worst part is I dont even know if i wanna try anymore or not.

Depression

I just have so much going on and I don’t know what to focus onnnnn ahh it feels very chaotic 🫣 I just don’t know how to get myself going to do all this stufffff

Stress

WARNING this has spoilers for the movie 'Spanglish'

Flor doesn't end up with Adam Sandler's character? Wtf? It's heartbreaking! Does anyone out there prefer the philosophical endings to the happy ones?

Life

I am screaming at the top of my lungs yet no one is listening.

So, i woke up in the morning with a bad mood. At first I didn’t know why but then I realised I was stressing over how i had so many plans for my life but still haven’t done anything. 

There are people (my classmates, friends, etc.) who have already began to work or are preparing for an entrance exam they have to crack, and I’m still here waiting for my last year in college to end so that i can move further. But this makes me like I’m doing it all wrong.

I always wanted to talk about this to someone but when i do everyone just thinks I’m dumb and have no plans for my future and I’m just dreaming and having unrealistic expectations from life but NO! It’s  not like i have no plans for my life, i do! And i am slowing working on it!  But I just keep feeling I’m too slow because everyone is already doing something and I’m still here!

I know after reading this some might say, “Just get up, and start working on it. Don’t just think, take some action.” Like yes, i know, just sitting and thinking doesn’t work. I’m just waiting for this year to end to i can think of what i can do further. But also I don’t want to feel like I’m doing nothing with my life.


Overthinking

Is there anyone who has ocd??I want to know why they don't like someone to be close to them as today I met one of my friend and I really wanted to hug her but she didn't even shake a hand with me and I really felt bad that why she didn't let me do that and I am also a girl so it's not the uncomfortable thing to do with the girl that's why I wanted to know is everyone who has ocd acts like her or she is like that only??

3am Thoughts

hi, i'm new here...i hope everyone is doing good
so i am finally at the point where i needed to talk to somebody, 
recently everything is going tough for me, few days back i looked at myself in the mirror and could not recognise myself, i felt like i am not this person. last night i had thoughts racing in my mind and my heart was beating very fast, i was tired but i couldn't sleep, when i did fall asleep for a short while, i woke up suddenly due to a dream i had. same thing happened in the morning, i woke up with racing thoughts about the day ahead and a fast beating heart. i'm a 20 year old female in college but i still feel like i have not grown up or become mature at all, about my friends, i always feel like they don't care about me as much as i care about them, which stops me from reaching out 
there's one more thing...i am replaying things from my childhood in my head (a bit too frequently) which are not good memories,
that's the reason i came to a different city for college and now our college is closing again due to covid so i have to go back now

does anybody have any suggestions? have you gone through something similar? 

Anxiety

When all the pushed down feelings uncontrollably rise to the surface, it feels so natural to loathe myself that it's kinda scary because I feel other people might be scared by the way I feel about myself and not know what to do. I don't know what to do about that. That's why it's hard to tell people what's wrong when they ask. I'm ashamed about my other feelings and scared people will see me differently if they don't understand. I'm pretty good at controlling my feelings, not to let the bad ones show. I try to be everthing for everyone all the time. I don't like to take time for myself because when I do, I feel like I am neglecting my family by not constantly being there for them. I've got about 20 years of pent-up, unrelinquished feelings that I have no idea how to deal with and am too far gone to talk to anyone, even a professional,  about them.
Only reason I'm here is because lately it's been hard for me to keep it together for everyone, and yesterday was the straw that broke the camel's back. Worst part is, it was something little and insignificant, to most.

Jealous

Anyone up for helping me get sumthin off my chest? Or helping me with advice without judging me? 

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