I am very insecure about my body (fat and tall). Had started eating less junk and exercising things were starting to get better when depression hit me nd I’m back to binge eating. I pretend like everything is fine nd try to stay calm when talking to others whe inside my head I’m just suppressing my fears. I cannot talk about how i feel without crying. I feel guilty cuz my sister nd mom r trying to do whatever they can to help me but I’m being unresponsive. Hostel life during pandemic has just increased my anxiety. I’m a huge germophobe nd my roommate could care less about social distancing. She goes out to meet friends every night. I tried looking up few of my symptoms and suicide hotlines come up which is where i found this site. I hope i can love myself for who i am.
Hi my anonymous friend . I want to share my story may be it help you. I’m also very insecure about my body because I’m very thin . But my major problem is , I have a addiction . I have been fighting this addiction since 7 or 8 years but always fail. Because I ignore the very important part of addiction “brain”. This year I start reading about how a our brain works and more importantly what changes addiction makes in our brain. Chemical like dopamine and deltaFosB increased craving and overstimulated our reward system. A spiral can ensue in which wanting/craving leads to doing, doing triggers more surges of dopamine, dopamine causes DeltaFosB to accumulate and the urge to repeat the behaviour gets stronger with each loop. So work on your brain it really help. And I’m always here to talk feel free to ask anything.
Thanks! Will work on strengthening mental health
Simran @st1199
Hello!
Happy to see you hear and listen to your problem.
If your roommate doesn’t listen to you just complain to the guard so that she looks into the matter. With you having germophobe and Covid too, it’s important to maintain social distance.
Look out for therapists who can help you out professionally. There is a detailed list provided on the website, please go through it. 💙
Thanks for the response…i don’t have covid I’m just stressed out about getting it since people around me are not exactly practising social distancing. The symptoms I was talking about were regarding depression.
Simran @st1199
Yes, I got you right. I meant with Covid going on it’s important to maintain social distance as she could be the carrier to you which no one wants.
And, by symptoms, I too meant your depression for which I suggested looking for therapists and searching it here on the website as well.
