I am Under Pressure,alone. Coz it's the only last chance for me to bounce back if I do it I will fullfil my family dreamz but If I loose it then I loose everything. Let's see what will happen

It basically means.. i dont feel so i dont judge if one talks a thing to me and its kinda cool  and insane like me 

I want you to know that everything will be fine. Times are hard but we'll get through this. Stay strong.


Hey anon!
Look no need to be pressurized believe in yourself, we might be strangers but i believe in you and i know you gonna hit the thing up!! Your family is gonna be so so so proud of you.. just relax and believe. 
Wanna talk more dm on @practically__dead insta


Depression

Hi
My head is a weird place. It creates scenarios -which either are the worst case or attention seeking from the people I talk to. And therefore I start spinning a lie in real life which looks closest to it. Hence altering major changes in the relationship dynamics around me

Ex: my roommate has been sick for two days, and I have been caring for her. Today I was telling this to another person (let him be X) I told him I was in a hospital for my roommate's check up. I even made up the details for it. While in reality she was resting in the hostel room right beside me and we never went to the hospital. 

Ik this was an attention seeking attempt. I really want to stop this. Please help.

Cheating

I just wish for once people understood that I am not lazy
I am tired of living like this 
I don't have the energy in me to keep pushing
I am drained 
I swear I am not lazy it's just that sometimes being so emotionally tired causes everything to be dull and I feel like I don't even want to get out of bed but i wish I had the energy to get out and be active

But I am tired 

Wanna share what happen to me this week. I got to an accident the other day i fell down to the floor. a got bruises and also my chest bone and shoulder dislocate. I try to contact the last guy i dated because i can't sleep because of the body pain particulary at my chest. I contact him the message just got delivered. I just message him  if he's okay and then i delete then i send again. and i message again " sorry for disturbing i just need someone to talk because i can't sleep because i got accident the other day. and sorry for disturbing you. i send it and block him. Were not talking for 3 months already. It is obession? 

Relationships

I am feeling confident today. 


Books

Yes, Watching Taylor Swift's MIDNIGHT album says it all about my 3:00 am mood ...🌌

3am Thoughts

Some desterbanse i uninstalled the app again and again and I am back feel very thoughtful.

Confusion

Being so much confident in day to day life,  I still got nervous at the time of my interview.... I don't know why?🥺 
Anyone any suggestions to overcome this nervousness.... 

Anxiety

i dont know what i m doing... i really need the money right now and i m fucking stupid to stop my studies and start doing a job but because of low level language i m compelled to work under someone which i dont like 
still i m doing it for money and i m young and the people around me are kind of old and they wont understand what i m going through neither i like to express my feelings because i think they wont understand
further more i have some family issuse and financial problems and all these create a lot of pressure on my family members because of which i cant share my own problem neither i can understand their coz i m not being able to understand my own problem how m i gonna be understanding their problems
still moving on with the ray of hope that everything will be fine sooner or later i just have to beleive in myself and have faith in godddd.....
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