I am struggling right now with idea of who I want to be in a relationship. I’ve always dreamed of being with a man, that’s what I was raised to be believe and have had actual dreams of such. But as I began to come into my sexuality more, being bi which I’ve known since I was 7 and scared to come out. I really wrestle with the idea of falling in love with a women. I’ve had two girlfriends one in high school and one college , neither were fruitful or long term. I’m scared and have no idea how to even navigate that territory, I’ve never approached a women I don’t even know how and I’ve got three kids which is stressful. I haven’t told them about my sexuality even though I know they won’t have a problem with it I"m still scared. I’ve been raised with the belief that children need a man/father in their lives and if I end up with a women I’ll be robbing them of that. Although their father isn’t in their lives already as much as they hurt because of it. I’m so emotional, I don’t know what to do or say or if I should do anything, but its killing me inside I feel so trapped.