I am starting to have a crisis. I cant see a way out, I want to die. I wish I knew a way to kill myself without pain.

This life is not for me. How will I survive? I am useless, dont have any skills, am good at nothing.

I hate myself so much

I highly recommend you to go to gym or start running or even you can  pet a animal 

Why do I feel the same though? I just feel like I can't deal with this anymore... What is anyone supposed to do?

Suicidal Ideation

Speak politely,
But if it is necessary,
ROAR.

3am Thoughts

Enjoying all you have and thinking it is enough is Gratitude. 

Happy

I was really stressed because of a comment my mother made. Due to the extension of the quarantine I can probably lose this semester, and I'm super worried because I'm paying my own education. So today she asked me if I was happy hearing that, obviously I wasn't happy about it and said no. She laughed at my face telling me that my expression had 

Relationships

I am confused between 2job offers 
Both are good 
Money wise and career wise
And very different from each other
One is giving me exposure 
One is giving me a good money 
What should I do

Career

I want to start my life with a person without knowing her history, past affairs. 

Whatever we will do we will start from here on. 

Who wanna join me as best friend

Searching remotee work from home job chat process and email.. n basic knowledge in system control .. amazon experience non voice process .. please if any thqn replu

I feel like I don't have anything to offer to the world right now, but I know... I know I will someday. I'll make sure I'm worth something someday. Just not there yet. It will take some time.. I wish it was faster, I wish I was already there but I'm not. I will be someday. Right?

Exhausted

Okay. How to say this? But I need to start some way.
I am 17 year old girl. I was trying my heart and soul to get taller but just stucked in 4ft 7. How abnormal is that? Some may think that I shouldn’t bother about it. It is my body and maybe it's my fate so that's unchangeable. Worrying about it won't help and I should focus on other things. Trust me, I tried. I tried for 17 years of my life and whenever I tried to do something, I got humiliated. People laugh at me seeing my height as it seems like a kid. I know it’s weird but that's hard for me to stay in places where I am treated like a clown 24/7. Do I deserve this? My parents are also short so at some point, I got to know that I won't be growing anymore. When I didn’t even grow in my growth stage, how can I grow at the end of my growth stage? But I knew, nothing is impossible. So I start gathering courage and again worked hard. Tried to do many stretches and drink milk but all in vain. Nothing has changed. It pains a lot when stretch my legs and arms. I was just that close from crying because my body was being weak and hurting a lot from doing these. But at the end of the day, my hard work didn’t pay off. It was not worthy. What to do? I still didn’t become hopeless cause I know I have to live. And here, people continuously judged me. My friends, my cousins, teachers, neighbours, shopkeepers everyone just stare at me when they find my age. Some people laugh in front and some in back. I always tried to ignore but how long? How long a person can? It is obvious that a person will feel bad and be in depression. Was it my fault? What did I do to deserve this? I see my friends getting proposal from boys and I am here treated like a baby. Not nicely but mockingly. It just doesn’t feel good. It's actually not their fault also. They will obviously laugh at me cause I am just not normal. I look weird for my age. I get it. No guy will be interested in me. How can I live my life alone with no partner? It scares me. My parents won't be always there with me. They are good but thet are also worried about me thinking how will I survive in future. I am also scared. Even if I study hard, I will be a joke in colleges, universities and maybe in offices too. Going to school is really hard for me. I always get the undesirable stares and laughs. I just can't tolerate this. It also affects my mental health and I am unable to focus on anything. Even I want to develop my skills and be the better version of myself, I will have to go somewhere to take courses and guess what? I will have laugh there too.Everyone laughed at me when I was taking English courses. So thats not made. Thats gonna be true. It makes me cry. I can't even stand in the society properly. I wish, our society was less judgemental. I see no hope for my future. I fear when my parents leave me, I will be all alone. These thoughts kill me inside. I know worrying won't help but these worries just come. How can I ignore these when I know these are going to be true? 

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