I am so tired of life now that i can't go on anymore. I want to die. I don't understand why God wants to keep giving me this pain, anxiety and uncertainty all the time. If He hates me so much, why doesn't he kill me? Why doesn't he give me the courage to end my life. I am tired of this pain. I can't take this anymore. If God is reading this now, please stop it. I am sorry. I can't take this anymore.

🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹 thanks buddy. I feel better now

Bhai / behen golgappe ya momos khane chalte hai, meri treat hai ✌️

3am Thoughts

You look cute on ignoring 🫰

Is anyone doing MBA or has done MBA? 

Adulting

Can Someone tell me the real meaning of Love and how it feels?

Life

I feel sad and exhausted.

I made an effort putting on my makeup. To look good as possible as I can. Tryna pull off this white plain polo shirt for our moving up ceremony. They said I have to wear white, put my hair in a bun and take a picture with a white background. I tried so hard to find ways but now that I did find ways to do everything, I needed someone to take a picture of me. It's just heartbreaking sometimes when you have to ask for your sister's phone cuz ur phone isn't able to capture good quality pictures, altho her's isn't that good too but mine's worse tho. I asked them kindly to take a picture of me cuz I just couldn't do it alone. I don't even have that thing (I forgot what its name) where you put ur phone in a stand and I also have to climb up to reach the white background so another reason to ask help from someone else. I was hoping for their cooperation but then I just feel like I don't want to do it anymore because of their reaction, it's like I'm just a burden and feel like I'm just wasting their time cuz they would complain every seconds so I had a breakdown. Now I don't have a picture and my makeup is a mess. Sometimes, I would wish to graduate soon and move out from them. I'm just fcking tired. Even if I have to work in another city I would gladly do it. Cuz it's not just from school where I would get stress, it is mostly about my family. I'm done.

Stress

He lied about his fathers death after our breakup to may for sympathy… but he apologised .. saying he regret doing that… cos he just wanted to talk to me he was feeling suicidal. And wished he could tell me face to face and not on the phone … cos may be i would ghost him … 
Forgivable??  

If I were my own parent, this is what I would say to myself- 

I am proud of you. You are doing so much hard work despite having everything so unpredictable and bonkers. I love you and no matter what happens, nothing can ever decide your worth. You are smart and capable . Despite having such a rough situation during entire 2021, I am proud of how you pulled yourself together. I wasn’t there for you when you needed me, I am sorry 
You do you, no matter what the world says 






Affirmations

I feel so lonely, I live in the state of Minnesota, I use to live with my brother but he pass away because he couldn’t put the bottle down, so my family split, I started staying with my sister but eventually she kicked me out because she trying to say I was peeing in her bathtub when I really wasn’t, ever since then she never contacts me, there this girl I was involved with we just recently got back together and I believe she carrying my unborn child but but now she don’t want me to talk to her because of recent events, I currently stay in my car now and I wish I could live with the girl but I never been at aping like this in my life and I’m stille learning on how to be the best person I can be

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