I am so tired and depressed these days. The future seems so uncertain. I couldnโt get my desired specialization and it was so hard to let go of that dream. 16 of my classmates will be living my dream while I will be just watching them. I want to do PhD from HU. Now thatโs my only hope, my only reason to live. I have nothing else to look forward to or to live for. I will end my life if I donโt get through. I have nothing else to live for. I canโt take another rejection.