I am so ready to outgrow this version of myself. I am so excited about honing myself and surprising myself with the heights of my potential.

Its so exciting to think about the future. 

Happy

I want to talk to someone about my thoughts and feelings but I can’t. I feel that no one will understand 

Exhausted

I got new windows installed on my laptop by a person 2 months ago and it literally says " activate you windows" and it's not letting me do things ,the pop up keeps coming up
And I'm not a tech person at all
What do you guys suggest

Aaaaa fuckkkkk i feel exhausted 😭
Everything sucks🥺

need someone rn..

Love

So I really feel fantastic most of the time. I really enjoy my life and being an introvert I need no one to keep me happy or entertained because I figure out my own way. I do not involve into unnecessary arguments with anyone and just mind my own business. I have a small friend circle and all of them are proud of having me as a friend because I sound most sensible to them and I always like to be as close to reality as possible.
Now, the problem is my family doesn't like this happy for nothing behaviour of me. For them I should be worried about something then only I make a good son. I should act serious, responsible and mature and that's what it would take me to please them. But I am the exact opposite of what they expect. Now one of the components of my nature is I try to make people like me. Now here is where it contradicts me. If I try to be my parents version of me I go depressed and anxious but they are happy. If I don't try that and just be myself I really get scolded for every single thing I do and according to them I should be ashamed of even breathing. Now ofcourse I cannot fight them and till date I have tried many times to let them know that they should let go of their expectations of me. But all ends in emotional drama and them saying I am not a worthy son. Now if this would have been anyone else I wouldn't give a sh*t of what they would think of me and carry on with my life. But they are my parents and I believe making them unhappy is going to bring no good to me. So I am really in this trap where on one side stands me and my ambitions and on the other side stands my parents expectations. I really cannot decide which one weighs more and how should I come to conclusion that would benefit both the sides?

Depression

Koyi hai kya?

3am Thoughts

Is there anyone? 

Let me share a story of my dear friend. Her name is say, A and she got married to a man say, B. A got married to B against her family’s wish and B’s family was happily ready. After marriage she got to know that B is divorced and when A asked the reason for the failure of the marriage, they told her that the previous wife was a characterless lady. A started living with them. She is a very intelligent woman and was a bright student at one of the renowned Institute. B and B’s family pressurised the girl to stay with B and either drop the college or convert the study as part time. The books are the only things that can keep A sane. So she refused. Her in laws were continuously pressuring her to leave studies and look at B’s carrier as B was quite old and not doing well at his workplace. They used to raise voice and if she protest against them then they all used to gang up against her and start crying as if she is the culprit. Once her mother in law yelled at her at a public place and everybody was watching, her father in law called her father a bad person and meanwhile B was silent. When she told B that what she is going through he told her that this is her fault. If she wishes, she can stay wherever she wants. So she decided to leave the man. At that point, the man realized that this girl too is slipping from his hand and now who will look after his parents, his sister, brother in law and sister’s children (earlier he was thing that she has no place to go and she will surrender), so he decided to cry again. But this time A was so sure that she will lead her life in her own way (they pressurised her to sign a paper that says she is not forced to get married and all the people are very well behaved and blah blah blah so that’s why she wasn’t able to complaint). She is now doing just fine. Living her life alone and I hope the only life she got on this earth may bring all the bliss to her as she truly deserves it. She hasn’t seen any good thing in her life. The worst thing of her life disguised her as the happiest moment. So she has now reached a state where she cannot feel anything and confined her life to the books only

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