I am so fed up of my life now... It's been 5 months now... My dad doesn't let me do engineering anywhere... He wants me to do engineering only if there's 100% scholarship... I bagged admission in US and turkey universities but he forcibly got me admitted for BCA🥲... And now when a university called for admission for b.tech in Hyderabad he didn't let me go there too🥲 he just keep saying I don't have money to spend on you🥲 how's that possible? He has alot of property 🥲 he easily sent my sister for b.tech without any second thoughts and when it was time for me 🥲 he didn't let me do it. Instead he wanted me to do job right after 12th which I was offered by HCL but I didn't take it.. since then he has been mad on me🥲

Mai kya karu yaar... Ab kisi se baat karnay ka b dil nai karta🥲

Career

It's been a year, I am trying to convince my parents about my future but they are not listening.
I want to be a Digital marketer but they want me to become a Software engineer, in which I am not interested. Now, I am studying  11th and after 12th then CET exam and the point if I want to become a good Software engineer then I should do diploma, and that's point I feel anxiety about .
Today the world see's skills not just certificate. I think that if I don't want to become a Software engineer then why am I wasting my time and parents money. As I said I am trying to convince them from year and still I am doing it, so what should I do? I am just thinking that I should run from home as I get 18+ and start my journey on my foots. 
Please someone help me to get out of here!

Depression

Hey Guys !!!
I need your help .....

My parents are against my dreams and ambitions. I wanted to be a singer at first but then they told me that I will have no future because I will be wasting my time on useless career and that I am not very talented. 
I guess they were right about me being not talented so I made up my mind to become start my own business. I wanted to open up a coffee shop but I haven't planed a lot about it since I am still studying. When I told my parents about it, they told me that it would be an embarrassment  to the family and that people would think I am crazy... 

I really don't know what to do........... I want to make my parents proud but at that same time follow my dreams 

Family

 i failed to get into pure science class . how can i tell my parents? they really hope that i can be a doctor. i failed .

Adulting

Anybody a doctor here? I need medical help.

Teenagers

I am always a very positive and cheerful person, but somthing happened today....

I am 22 years old and today I am on a visit to Mumbai for my meetings. I have recently started to help my father in his Business. So for the same purpose I and my father were in Mumbai since morning.

So we went to one of the relatives' place and there we all were discussing about education of my cousin and then the topic drifted to me perusing education in German.

Okay, so I am waiting for my documentation, after that I will be flying to Berlin for my masters.

So todya my baba just said in a joking way infront of our relatives that - 
"Ojas (me) was not capable to do anything in India hence we are trying in Germany, maybe he would learn something there, hahaha."

I don't know if it was in a joking way or it was a taunt to me.
Basically, my education history has not been glorious. If I score more than 60% then I was satisfied. But gradually I changed myself and I scored 77.5% in my bachelors. Which is like Everest for me. Just imagine the boy who could never score above 63%, scored 77.5% in his bachelors, it was indeed a very BIG THING for me. But my Aai baba (my mom dad) did not react much. I had studied for them, I wanted to make them proud of their son.

But maybe they are not. I had put my 1000% efforts in my bachelor's study. And I scored 77.5% which was really a milestone for me.

But I think my parents are not proud of me. And today is the saddest day of my life because of the comment of my father in front of our relatives. 

Current Affairs

I m suffering from a disease called
"Mujhsekuchnhijhilrhaiamlost"

3am Thoughts

Hi,
I am 25 yrs old and working in an mnc. My parents are looking for matches and when asked me about any special requirements i told them i don't have any so simple one like please look a groom till 30yr old and package has to be more than mine. so far its good. I will share the types of mentalities of my parents then will come back to this thing.
I am very studious in school and always in top 5. So i wanted to do medicine then my mainly my mom didnt allow me to take bi.p.c, you know why becuase my school principle told her that i am very good at maths so i have to go for engineering. i am very well decided that i dont want to go for engineering then  they somehow managed and convinced me to go for maths. i have taken maths and done my inter(+2). Then i came to know about CA program and i was so much inspired with all ted talks and decided to go for it. Again the same thing my mother opposed and took me near some stupid person for brainwashing and after all the drama i have created they didnt let my decision win and i have joined in Btech. i scored enough marks and got placed in MNC in final year.
I took a break for around 6-7 months after college and joined the company. Those 6 months i stayed in my home. I dont know why my mother dont like me or something she has literally showed me hell for taking a break. Daily she used to bring a topic and argue with me and i have to happen to cry and then think whether she is my real mother or i git exchanged in the hospital😌. Are all mothers in this way or only her. My frnds are very happy with their mothers unlike me.
I dont understand why the hell she treats me in that way. I have younger sister and she looks after her very well. During btech i used very basic mobile whereas my sister after passing inter she gifted her a mobile worth 10k. watever she does my mother supports. Even if i buy a dress without asking her she will scold and argue like i have committed some crime. I always feel like she is not my mother. Even though i help her in the household chores, she never recognizes it and indeed tells everyone that i am lazy and never help her. I thought of running away from home and also thought of suicide many times.

Coming to my current situation:
my package is around 5lpa. I want my future husband to be earning well around 8lpa. But she(my mother who acts worst than step-mother) is instigating and brainwashed my dad that since i am working i got too much pride and have become egoistic person, so i am not accepting any matches. 
the first match i got they came to see me so i was dressed properly but her complain is that i didn't dressup like she told i didn't like the guy so it got rejected. Almost 6 months i have rejected. I got a match recently all seemed fine and she usually gives over hype to everybody who comes to see me. She tells me that the groom family is very rich, boy is earning 10 lakhs per annum and his family is very good and we know them from childhood bla bla bla. I know very well she is telling all lies so that i will accept the match and leave house asap. The groom side people has come to see me and when myself and the boy stood behind each other the boy is 2 inches less than me. everybody can see that but she is trying to prove that the boy is of equal height. How cheap it is when others are telling that the boy is short she never listens and then since she liked the boy i have rejected saying that the boy is short. I spoke to him personally he didn't have any career aspirations and indeed asked me to reduce little bit weight.

Same drama again and again. they brought me a 33 year old match and bluffed like never before. My point is OK I want to get married but let me decide at least this one month. When i look back in the past all the important decisions were exclusively made by her and i am not even happy with my current job. I have learned one thing and working on other platform.

Why does she behave with me in that way? Instead of her torture i feel like dying so that she don't have to get me married. She influences my dad too in such a way he too agrees to her and he is another level.

She never asks me to eat or never look after me well. Even if don't eat she never asks to eat. She never keeps food in plate and asks to eat whereas she feeds my younger sister. If i tell her i am hungry can you serve the food the dialogue coming out is go and have it yourself. Does everyone behaves in the same way? I have always tried to be good to her and even got her sarees whenever i come home. 

Instead of this torture i am feeling like what if i do suicide? She can have her younger daughter and live happily. Don't have to answer anyone about my marriage?

Stress

I’ve just had a thought.. 
Do psychologists sometimes feel like they are reading a book (when listening to the patient)? But they get to intervene 🤔

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