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I am so fed up my life, fighting against myself. I am about 22. I have gynecomastia. It is a medical condition that is called man boops in modern world. I can not even weat skin tight t shirt even I have muscular body. It feels worse. Due to this if feel deppressed all the time. I need $6000 dollars to remove it from chest through surgery. That does not end here I have a pschological problem that is called racing thoughs that gives nighmare feeling even when i am awake. I have literally zero control over my mind. Even a passing car or a phone call or a hii from friend disturb my mind and I keep fighting till sleep and I some cases it even continues when i wake up. I do not even recall the the time my mind felt fresh. Everyone around me keeps me asking what am i thinking, they do not know what i am suffering from.
It feels worse, my mind is so frustrated even my hairs started falling and my skin got tan. I feel like I should die but i do not want to. I do not know what to do.

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Hi. We are all flawed. All of us. Some of us are just better at hiding our flaws than the others, that’s it. Don’t think too much about your flaws. For me gynacomastia has no importance as long as you are a good person. Always remember you are much more than your physical flaws and honestly what you just said above this is not even a falw… Nobody is perfect you know. So chin up and remember that you are perfect just the way you are and regarding your mental state I’d suggest to go seek mental help from a psychiatrist if it bothers you a lot. Lots of prayers for you 😃