I am so fed up my life, fighting against myself. I am about 22. I have gynecomastia. It is a medical condition that is called man boops in modern world. I can not even weat skin tight t shirt even I have muscular body. It feels worse. Due to this if feel deppressed all the time. I need $6000 dollars to remove it from chest through surgery. That does not end here I have a pschological problem that is called racing thoughs that gives nighmare feeling even when i am awake. I have literally zero control over my mind. Even a passing car or a phone call or a hii from friend disturb my mind and I keep fighting till sleep and I some cases it even continues when i wake up. I do not even recall the the time my mind felt fresh. Everyone around me keeps me asking what am i thinking, they do not know what i am suffering from.
It feels worse, my mind is so frustrated even my hairs started falling and my skin got tan. I feel like I should die but i do not want to. I do not know what to do.