I am restless!! Really worried about the deadlines…And the fact is…that i am not working for completing my work but just worrying that will i be able to complete it…😑😑😑

Kr rahi hu😂😂😂...Do I have any other option!! Krna hi pdega..

How would you find out unless you work through it?
Chop chop get right on it. And tomorrow will be easier on u.

Adulting

I just can’t do this anymore I’m so exhausted. I have a plan to kill myself. I seriously can’t do it anymore I’m done I hate everything about myself I don’t understand what I did to deserve this. I know it’s for the best and it’s time for me to leave. I know it’s gonna hurt people but I can’t do this anymore I’m so tired and exhausted I’m trying to get help and I’m trying my best to get better and it’s not working. I take so many meds for all my mental illness and it’s so hard to do everyday. I’ve been dealing with this for so long and it’s been to long. I relapsed last night and it felt really good and I know it shouldn’t have but it did. I’m at the point where I need help again and I can’t take it anymore. I’m seriously struggling so much. I know it’s not worth it but I can’t keep fighting anymore. I can’t get myself to eat because of my eating disorder and it sucks. I hate it so much I wish it wasn’t apart of me. I feel like I’m just being pushed down more and more everyday.

Depression

Sometimes I feel like I don't belong here if you know what I mean

I think I'm a complete mess, idk why

3am Thoughts

Hello everyone, 
I am Koko and I have been going through severe stage depression from like more than 14 years. It's not only depression it's overall kinda package of loneliness, feeling suicidal, feeling helpless, feeling something nowhere to go, social anxiety, feeling tired all of the day and much much more. Everyday i try to get up do some stuffs like cleaning dishes, room, clothes, etc but there is something known as "Black me" who follows me everywhere and when there is no one at home that black me becomes so large that i can't even shower peacefully, it becomes so dreadful. I have heard things like "Be positive", "Chill Bro" n all but to be very honest no things doesn't work like that.. There's so much going through our mind and body that we maybe smiling and laughing outside but inside we are screaming, shouting, crying. Sometimes we are able to show all these emotions but sometimes we don't have even capacity to cry. I am at that phase of life where everything seems lifeless, everything seems hopeless and if you say me this that I don't even have capacity to argue.... My childhood traumas, molestation, tortures and so many disturbing incidents are all the part of my friend "DEPRESSION"... Be it morning or night or anytime of day i am trying yoga, meditation, gymming but all i am getting is depressed. Some people have said me that don't i have topics to talk or why am i so silent i hope this post answers all your queries. I am so much done with this life. 

May God Bless You all and really thanks for reading !! 

I have fucked up my life.
I m Socially Awkward,  Unemployed at 26,  Living with parents, Zero friends and zero self confidence now.
I m constantly living in humiliation,  loneliness,  and depression since last 3 years. I lost all my friends,  I never had any relationship,  I have social anxiety since childhood. 
Constant failures are killing me. I can't see any good future currently. I don't want these suicidal thoughts. I don't have anyone whom I can tell anything about how I feel. 



I think my biggest problem is that i care too much. I care to much of what people think of me, my actions, my comments, my behaviour and everything. Specially the people who i consider close to me, their opinion means alot to me. I prioritise them over me and my problems. But in this process u don't realise that i am no where near their top priorities. While i am thinking about their problems all day i ignore my own problems. I have a friend who has a hard time with her family, she often calls me at night not to talk just to cry and just have someone there for her. And i appreciate it, i like that she can trust me and that she knows that I'm always here for her, but i guess i ignore the fact that I'm also in the middle of an anxiety attack during the same time, i supress my tears so that i don't make her feel worse while hurting myself in the process. I know it's wrong, and ig it's probably selfish of me to even post this but i don't know.
And the feeling that no one actually gives a shit about me is always there. I am always here for my friends whenever they wanna talk but are they gonna be their for me? Am i as important to them as they are for me? Cause i really don't feel like it...

Lonely

What are obsessive behaviors that comply with OCD?

I want to run away from home ..can you suggest me some safe places ..


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