I am really really happy today 
Looking forward for the new and loving schedule ahead


I just hope people get infected with this kind of infections

I love your positive vibe!!  Its infections

Happy

Is this platform worthy?

Adulting

So I've decided to confess to my ex that I'm in love with them, but I'm not sure if I should write a letter and give it to them (seems kinda dramatic, but I've already written it- it's a whole page) or tell them in person.
 I'm just worried that if I say it in person I will forget what I wanted to say.

But the good thing about saying it in person is that I can get his reaction right then.
But if I give him the letter, it'll be less anxiety. 

What should I do?

Relationships

I feel like I’ve wasted my years from college days to now (24). With no skills and no job I’m scared to skill myself and try things. What if I’m no good when I do them or what if I do it and realise I want to change AGAIN! 😭 but I can’t keep not doing anything. I know no field is easy but I think too many choices are paralysing me. Nothing seems to be satisfactory enough as a choice. I’m crippled by the anxiety that I’ll never be able to make it if I keep going like this. How do I turn my life around? 

Work

Hello. I have a best friend, we met in high school, and have been very close since then. It's been like that for the four years of our college lives (different colleges). And a looot of things have happened during this time. 
So this bestie of mine has a lot of issues to deal with, she also suffers from PCOS, and many other issues. And she had a rough time last year, so the whole year, I've more or less, been like a therapist to her. Always gave her a shoulder, always listened to her problems. At times, it made me really upset that she was never emotionally available when I needed her. But then, I went with it because it was her, who was having a worse time than I. But once I confronted her, and things turned out really hurtful, she attacked me for not understanding her, I attacked her for not understanding me, and so on. 
After a couple of weeks, we apologized to each other, and things got better. I and her went on a trip together, with our boyfriends, it was all fun. 
Now things are better in her life, I'd not say ideal, but better. And she's in a good space and a better mental state. 
And I share her happiness, and I'm very happy for her. Also, when good things happened in her life, I thought it's good for me too, as I'd finally get my bff's emotional availability. 
But, no, that's not what happened. It almost feels like she's not interested in my life. She barely texts me, replies after hours. I don't feel like sharing things/ feelings anymore because she either doesn't listen to what I'm saying patiently (or so it feels), or doesn't remember at all. She's very self absorbed. And it's having a negative impact on me. 
When we're in person, she is really good with me. Although, it's different when her boyfriend is around. But I know she loves me, I know she cares about me, etc. She tells me that she does. But, it just doesn't feel that way you know? 
Meanwhile, I still continue to listen to her feelings patiently, and reply sensibly and empathetically, to this day. 

And at this point, I don't know if I'm being too judgemental, or being too self absorbed myself! 
I know I can't confront her about this again. Bcuz we've been through this, and the last time, she told me she'd never want to lose me. 
Maybe I'm the attention seeker, I really don't know. But these feelings, are real. And I'm just putting up with them, with her. But then eventually I forget it, and try to share, but I get hit with the same kind of response again! 
I'm tired. And don't know what to do. 
Is it me? Is it my expectations? Please, somebody tell me what you feel about this. 

Thank you so much for taking time to read my rant. 

Friends

I m stuck in a loop hole of loneliness
I don't know how to get out and live life happily i really wannaa die i m feeling like killing myself everytime 
My mental health is not good at all and i really need some kinda medication for it..
I can't concentrate on daily chores i can't study effectively i m just lonely and depressed and failed 

Depression

He's not picking up my call and being distant since we started dating and it's fresh, it's just been a week, i asked him today does he have someone in his mind or is something bothering him and he said he'll explain later (texted today evening) i called him at 10pm, he cuts the call puts up a msg I'll call you right back, called him at 1am no response, y don't he tell off which is running in his mind, this is really bothering me nd making me more anxious, i don't want to feel this way, in what other way can i reach him, don't advice me to wait for his call after reading this.

Anxiety

I haven't been focused on my studies lately, I'm thinking of dropping out. Classes began last month and I already paid for them, I don't know if it's too late to withdraw. What do you guys think? 

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