I am not feeling well I just talked my heart out with someone .. ye pehli baar hua h mane kisiko ese express kia h mujhe ni pata wo kya soch rhe h but don't know what to say....

Baat karlo yaar kis ise  thoda sahi lagega 

Chalo kabhi le toh connect kar sakte ho🖐🏻

3am Thoughts

cutu guy ghosted me. i probably wasn't good enough for him🤡

Crush

i relapsed

Self Harm

please give me tips to deal with toxic parents. 

Anxiety

So a few days back I got in an accident, it was my friend’s driving that got us there. It was a traumatic experience. And today on a 3 hr drive back home, my father idk what got into him but he injured/killed a duck and a goat(it was a rural area). He never drives like this. And we couldn’t stop to pay for our damage but I feel my head will burst. Also its a constant turmoil at my house because my parents don’t understand each other. Mother is schizophrenic and constantly having mild episodes while father is too self-centric. Whenever they’re having a fight he plays the victim and smokes a lot and idk how long this will go on. I’m tired. I want to leave but who will take care of them? 

Exhausted

Main kuch din phale anonymouly post na kar ke regular way me post karne lagi the but actually some people are start stalking me so i things posting things as an anonymouly is good idea 

Boring waiting a car 

#38..........We went inside that cafe/tea outlet. It was very crowded and we were looking for a place to sit. When Mr. BS found a place. He was a bit towards the corner, which wasn't that much visible. I was sitting there when he said he would go place the order and also charge his phone. I was on my phone talking to my mom. My mom's number is saved in my contact list with a red heart beside it like "Mom ❤️". I didn't notice that he had come and was looking at me. All of a sudden he snatched my phone from my hands and said "Who are you texting, who is this red heart ?" With out my consent he took my phone and saw the chat. He realised it was my mom, he laughed. He said "Oh it's your mom". I asked for my phone back. He pretended like he didn't listen and kept scrolling through my phone and checking it. That's when the waiter came with our tea and he got distracted and I snatched my phone back. I felt very bad. He could see that. I just wanted to leave by then. I said I am getting late I need to go. He said yeah sure. Let go. And he started walking with me towards the exit of the market place to fetch me a cab. We were walking when he said aren't you hungry, let's grab some McDonald's. I said I'm not. He said let's just get something. You can eat it on your way back home. Memories flashed back in my head when my mom warned me not to eat anything if someone forces you to eat something. If at all you can't deny, then accept the food, keep it with you but don't eat it. I thought I would take the food but not eat it. We went I side McDonald's, I saw the weather outside it was gloomy and was about to rain. I just wanted to go back to my place. While he was placing order I said I'd be back from the rest room..........(to be continued) 

I'm dying from inside....loosing myself.... don't know what is happening with me... overthinking, depression,I wanna share my feelings with someone but I hv no one to share 😞😞🥺🥺

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