I am nervous all the time, expecting something bad to happen but everything is going well and smooth. Feel deprived of so many things though i have everything anyone wants, want to fill the void with my desires but sacrifices i make along just leaves me hollow even more.

Just wait for it!! Stay calm and do some meditation. (Its for calmness) 

Anxiety

Any medical post graduate students here? #residencydays

Career

So my ex who is my friend, told me that he got into some VERY good program which costs alot of money and yet his family is supportive, he got not into just one BUT TWO such great programs. But I can't help but feel angry and upset over the fact that I couldnt even try because of my restraints and I feel like I'm left out, and feel like shit all the time. I don't want to do. 
I need some perspective. Please help. 😖

Confusion

If 2+1 equals to 3, you + I equals to we. 🥺

Alcohol

I overthink a lot, I overanalyse every little thing around me, every small behaviour. I notice everything and I hate it. It occupies my mind, I end up questioning my worth in people’s life. Constantly seeking reassurance from my boyfriend. I know he loves me, I know he’s never going to hurt me, but I always keep on questioning his love for me thereby making things difficult for both him and me. I don’t want to do that. I feel so exhausted. I just want to chill, not think so much and just go with the flow. But I don’t know how can I cope with this. I’m always in fear and scared. What if I’m not able to do anything in life? What if I turn out to be a failure? What if my boyfriend leaves me? Or what if he falls out of love with me? Idk. I hate my mind and its thoughts. I just want to shut it like a door but cannot😭

Overthinking

A small talk can fix a lot

Conflict

I go to instagram. I see all these people going to parties without me and seeing their flawless boyfriends and going to colleges and road trips. Then i close the app and start studying again. Lol. Lol. Lol. 

Day 1 of Journaling
My bf was talking to his ex, casual stuff. I found out few days back. I fought with him. I don't want to be with him, at the same time I'm not able to stay without him. I don't want to be vulnerable. I have seen my mom suffer because of my dad. Now i don't want to be my mom. I might be over thinking, but I'm just paranoid. My bf is a gem of a person. And no, he wasn't cheating on me, he was casually talking to his ex. Now I'm waiting for him to come home. But i feel low, i can feel my guts hurting, my heart heavy. I wish i could escape from all of these emotions. 

Insomnia

Suffering is important in life. Would you watch a series or movie where the main hero didn't go through struggles? No character development? Just plain happiness? No right?! 

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