I am missing you, I can't talk to you but I miss you. Our pov is different, I am rude and can't understand you Pov, but I always loved you. If I have gone through what you have, then I also have the same Pov but I can't be practical, I am an emotional fool and I love you but I guess love is not always enough. And it's best that we don't talk. Whenever I want to talk to you I just ping here🙂

Binge Eating

I joined an engineering college in Jan 2022. I had really high hopes for everything - The course, campus, friends, societies and events. I have had a really great time there but I can't help but feel that I've failed to make genuine friends who'll also become lifelong connections. Now I will always have someone to celebrate the highs but no one to be with me in my lows. As soon as I start to vent a little, they make it a competition of who's more miserable. That really pisses me off and has caused me to go into my shell again. I really hope that I find someone like that.

Friends

I am pursuing bcom and i am in second year nd my fmly have high hopes from me and i don't knw if I am capable of it or not..... I hv no idea what should I do now or after my graduation.... I am all alone I don't hv a single frnd with whom I can share my feelings I hv a bf but he is good for ntg...... I am exhausted 

Exhausted

Acquaintance

Ek kamaal karo 
Vo sawal karo 
Jo sach ko sach saabit kare
Is jhoot ka haal behaal karo. 

It's really long so prepare yourself <3

I just moved to a different country so its all pretty hard. I have one friend that lives miles away and i can't even meet them because of covid. I'm so alone and i don't have anyone to talk to. I've been doing self harm for 3 years now on and off and i can't get razor blades to cut with. The only way i feel better is if i cut. I have been having suicidal thoughts lately. pretty often. I won't do it so don't worry but it's been pretty hard lately. I guess slowly there are more negative things in my life than positive. People always say think of butterflies and things that i love but the truth is i can't do any of those things because of lockdown. I love to paint and sew and crochet but i lost all motivation to do anything that i used to love. I don't know if i'm actually depressed but i like to think i am so i feel like i'm not the only one that feels this way. 
Also there have been family issues and i just sit in my room all day avoiding anyone, because whenever i speak to my mother we just end up fighting and i can't do with that too. She always shouts at me saying that i have no reason to be unhappy and it just makes everything worse and it plants a voice inside of me that always tells me that my feelings aren't valid. And all i want is for someone to tell me that it's going to be okay and my feelings are valid and that they're here for me. Also a therapist but i can't go to one without my parents knowing.❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Suicidal Ideation

This place is dark, pitch black. Everything is Dark obscure. Moreover, I m standing on a Bog, chained.
I can feel my grip loosening. 
 What could I do? I have to really do something before I lose it for good.


Productivity

i've come to the realization that i will never neglect my body's response to certain changes in people's behavior ever again. it turns out that no matter what you feel, it is always right. i have made the mistake in the past, to ignore the feeling in my gut when i felt like someone was pulling away from me. i won't try to think i'm crazy anymore. i won't try to put the blame on my own insecurities. i know now, that whenever i feel a slight discomfort in a change of someone's words, i'll ask; "please tell me what's wrong. what's troubling you? please don't shut out." because it's the only thing i'll think about.


Affirmations

Bro aaj ke post padh ke bhot accha laga,  sabko life mein koi aisa mil raha hai jo usko chata tha ya kisi ka aaj din ban gaya... Every thing good is happening  all around,  i hope ye positive  environment  aap sabki zindagi mein bane rahe... 😊

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