I am lost in my feeling toward everyone around me :( I dunno how to deal with family, work and my wife about all matters.
What should I do to live a happy life without human complexity ?

Frustration

Why can't we not be sober? I just want to start this over
And why can't we sleep forever?I just want to start this over.

Alcohol

Love me... Love me ... 
Say that u love me....

Love

https://open.spotify.com/track/0yc6Gst2xkRu0eMLeRMGCX?si=LFQJx7EnRZCdmb4gqwlxMQ
"Your lips, my lips Apocalypse"
Ahhh this songgg

Music

I think I understand why my dad cheated on my mom now. No I am never going to support what he did, it wasn’t right. I have spent all these years hating him for this but yk as I grow up I feel more like my dad in terms of the loneliness he might have felt. Yk when you have been alone all these years, you crave love and care … having problematic parents, an arranged marriage and no meaningful friendships must have hurt him too like they hurt me right now. He must have bottled up all these emotions idk. But when you are in a situation where you never got that love, you crave for it and accept whatever little love comes your way. He must have felt truly loved or cared for in that moment when he cheated, it is wrong but I can understand why 

3am Thoughts

they first ask you how you’re feeling, I’m the type of person to just write everything down I think it helps. I’m not much of a talker. And honestly I feel confused.. this man I love walked into my life at a time where I needed someone the most. He made me feels things I’ve never felt before. He ended up living with me for a month cause he got kicked out of his home and we grew closer we met at work and we started hanging out more I fell in love with him and he asked me out on October 15, 2020 continued to live together I was happy but then he moved back home with his family. I was upset things were hard he was my escape I got to spend everyday for a month living with him it was great. We were doing fine had some rough patches but then things got rocky and we had a fight and ended up breaking up in May 2021 we stayed connected friends but we weren’t only just friends there was more. We weren’t exactly dating but we weren’t just friends very confusing on my end we both had individual issues that needed to be solved and now we’re in a pause not sure what is going on. I miss him and will do anything for him but I feel like he doesn’t wanna be with me and we’re just wasting time. He’s my best friend. And I’ve grown to want to constantly be with him every since October.. I want him back so badly but he’s not sure what he wants I’m not a big priority of his but I still keep making him a priority of mine.. it’s difficult. I just want this mess to be over.. 

Overthinking

"Sometimes you need to take a break from everyone and spend time alone to experience, appreciate and love yourself."

Exhausted

So now there is not even anyone to dream about and what an odd feeling I don't have the strength to put together the feature of fantasy face . I'm heartbroken over no one , over having no body to hope for, I'm heartbroken , usually over someone. Now I'm heartbroken over no one 

Compassion

I really hate people who makes fun of your physical appearance/insecurities and thinks it's some kind of a funny joke :')

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