I am just so tired of pretending like everything is FINE when it is not. I just have no motivation anymore i feel like no one would care if i just would do it. All i can think about is getting that blade and cut so deep that i can finnaly feel something. But i cant because i would just hate myself more and i am a swimmer so everyone would notice, and think i am crazy and wierd what should i do i really just wanna go and cutting is like my only escape. i cant do this anymore.
I feel your pain. I’ve been there. I’ve cut myself way too many times to remember. But trust me when I say it will get better. Cause it will. Keep your head up and just focus on something that makes you happy! If you ever want to talk just know I’m here <3