RS @rias98
I am in my CA Final. And I have exams in Dec 2021. I have been planning everything and even was working hard towards it. Until the mid of September something inside me changed. I stopped studying . And I have spent these 2 months don’t know doing what. I feel trapped in the cycles of Overthinking, procrastinating, binge watching youtube, guilt tripping myself. Telling myself I will get better but I am not. And it is killing me inside. I can’t see my face in mirror. No matter what I do I am just not able to concentrate anymore. I feel like I have lost everything. My preparation , my zeal towards my exams. I feel disappointed and dread inside. And i have never shared this feeling with anyone. And I am here now. I just don’t know. I never saw myself getting stuck in this pattern again. The same happened with me in the initial stages of CA exams too. And It made me feel so stuck. I just don’t know what I will do. I can’t face my exams , my family, myself.
RS @rias98
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No that option is not available.
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I tried , it’s not working
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Brings that change as in this phase I am in?
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Idk . One day I just felt so low , i slept for a whole day and I just was never able to study again.
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Thankyou.
I do this every day for multiple years. People hate me judge me for being like this
You should also start making small goals even if you don’t achieve them. Setting them itself is an achievement. I can understand
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People don’t know our minds. Sometimes it’s nkt even our choice to feel like this.
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I try. It just is not happening.
I know this happens. Note every goal you make. Either in phone or diary. This will help for sure
I know I hv been through worst trust me.
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What makes you still hopeful? How do you get suvh strength?🥺
I simply want to help because I m never helped. I m always left drowning. I m still drowning. That doesn’t mean I should let others drown too. I know this pain
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When i failed in ca inter i had this drowning feeling pulling me down. Like i was gasping for air. I can feel you. I really hope you get out of it.
It’s been 7 seven years I m into this. I don’t think I will ever get out of this. I hv lost myself
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CA final?
Naa intermediate
I m not pursuing CA anymore
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And you are not able to find happiness in the work you are doing anymore?
My family is ashamed of what I do because they can’t show me off to others anymore. They simply disowned me
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That’s not done. Have you tried talking? With them maybe they have some miscommunication
Its been seven years a miscommunication can’t exist this long. My mother also passed away in between she used to be bridge between us and only person who loved me. Now I am simply a maid to rest of my fly. They r punishing me this way
I love the work I do I m a teacher. I love being around children they listen to me. I am visible to them at least
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Wow that’s great 💫 more power to youuu
Thnx
Same has happened with me. I was also CA student.
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Really? How did you get past it? Please 🥺
I wasn’t . Years passed but I am still struck in that classroom and those books. My own people disowned me. Because they can’t show me off any more
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I am sorry. :(
Don’t be every one’s story is not same
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I know. It was my first attempt and I feel i have flunked it already.
Don’t worry until you don’t think it’s over it’s not over. Your life your choice. Feel what you feel fully then win your battle
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Okay :’(
Trust me just just don’t trust others. Just think about your life and don’t give up. You can do anything
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Thankyou , but how do I start again, i just feel stuck in a loop
Set small goals for studies. Write in diary or phone it will help
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I will try thankyou :’)
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