I am in a relationship with married person everything was fine in starting but now he is taking me for granted don't even care how I feel.. is my decision to be in a relationship with married person is wrong?

Technically yes, the only thing i can really say is you may have mkstaken expectations 

Just get out of this at the earliest. I have seen many such relationships and the ending of every such relationships is similar.

Boyfriend

Okay ,so i am finally going to talk about it,kyu mai move on nhi kr pai and tu bs khush apne mai .. tujhe farak nhi pdhta mai kitna roi tere liye ,maine sb dosto se baat krni band kr di kyuki tujhe pasand nhi tha ,kyu aakhir mai aaj akeli hu or tu ek new ladki ke saath khush nye relationship mai ,ik tu mujhe kbhi nhi btayega but mujhe sb pta h ,aakhir kya galat kia maine ,bta yrr.. Maine toh tujhe priority di life mai or mere hi text tujhe bhoz lgne lg gye ,kyu?? Kya hua h esa ki tune kbhi mere baare mai socha nhi or kyu mai aaj bhi bs ro rhi hu ye soch kr ki tu wapis aayega or sb thik hojayega, tu meri mental peace tha or ab jb tu nhi h ,mai thak chuki hu khud se ,har koshish ki tujhse sb sort krne ki pr kya mila mujhe ,kyu ho rha h yeh sb mere saath .. bta mujhe.
Mai or nhi rona chahti plz

Boys being angry at their girl for suspecting that they have a side chick while not regretting saying things that involves other females jokingly...You just reduced her trust in you. 

Relationships

went to the doctors today. i had to weigh myself. gained 10kg.. and now i hate myself more than ever. afraid i might go back to how i used to be.

Eating Disorder

Finally got to add a total of three new posts to my blog! I stopped posting for about a week because of being depressed.

Work

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Friends

I am stressed about my career. I ruined my JEE as well as my boards. My parents were soo mad at me and I was devastated. My brother talked us out of it and told me to switch career with whatever I like. I wanted to persue BMM but I couldn't get admission in any good college and that would have been total waste of my career. So I went for BMS. Again the admission portal was closed and I was so stressed. My parents were already mad at me for not being able to clear JEE like my brother did. He graduated from SPIT, andheri. He was also offered a seat in BITS mesra. So basically I was a complete failure in front of my dad. So I had two choices at that point, to take admission in some shit af college ( why am I even calling it a college? Its merely a 3 floor building with no campus, no good teacher, not even a canteen and with all the local students who take admission there just for the sake of getting a college degree as its affiliated to Mumbai University) and the other option was to stay home for an year, again prepare for JEE, face my parents mocking and ruin my life all over again. So yes basically I chose the former. My brother supported me, said score good marks in sem 1 and 2 and we'll transfer you to another MU affiliated college. I was happy, in all the chaos that was my 1 hope. Life f****d me all over again when we faced the outbreak of this pandemic! Exams were cancelled so I just couldn't take admission elsewhere! All my hopes shattered. In college I made few friends, but no one is interested in studies. I had no commerce background, I managed to study the basics of accounting and no one would believe this, but yeah i am the smartest one is my class! The teachers around couldn't even speak proper English. They give us all the questions before exam and that's it. Their work is done. But what's more horrible is even after having the question bank, no one managed to score even an 8 sgpa, except for me and yes a couple of other students. Urgh!! I am suffering from imposter syndrome, and things like this makes it even worse. Now I don't know whether I actually managed to score such great marks or is it because of the stupid faculty who's distributing marks for free. None of my friends are passionate about studies, career. Like you know how they say, hang out with smart people and people who talk about ideas, where the f*** do I find these people? I really wanna know. Like I have a big goal, I need to be around people who share the same goal, who motivates me when I am down, but not 1 person in my friends circle is like this! Who am I supposed to share all my feelings and ideas with? And what sucks the most is when you see people who were always behind you in school, are now doing exceptionally well and getting admission in great college while you take admission in a college which is way way worse than even the school you passed out from. I always wanted to be an IAS officer. It was a childhood dream. So during the whole 2020 I started my preparation. My brother however was not happy with my decision, asked me to drop this thought and get my a** back in corporate sector. He said its great that I am thinking about something like this, but i should not do anything to fail again in life. This would make me feel useless and ofcourse piss off my dad even more. I was myself in doubt because I knew its very hard, and I couldn't clear it in first attempt and I needed something to pull me up, not push me further down from where I already am. So I listened to what he said and now I am preparing for CFA. Also looking for some internships. But some how i don't really know what i want to do in life. I was not sure about upsc, I am not sure about cfa either. Like people already know what they are good at and they are following their passion. But is it just me who absolutely has no clue what to do in life or what are is my passion? I enjoy painting and stuff, but I can't do one by myself, so like what's my strength? Boy am I clueless! This has caused a lot of stress to me. I don't know if I could ever get the job or the company I want to because of my academic background. I don't want to be a failure. I am s*** scared each passing day of my life. Have I really ruined my life? Is there really no hope?
To anyone who actually read this, may god really bless you for listening to my whining. 

Career

Any listeners out there?
Just wanna talk about all the things and clear them off
Reply me if you wanna connect 
And I am also free to listen to all your worries.
Let's share each other worries just by sharing our name.We don't know each other so let's talk out all the worries which are stuck 

If someone is listening music ryt now, then add these songs in your playlist, if you like soft and slow songs 

Hawayein by Anuv Jain
Har ek pal 
Alag aasmaan by anuv 
Never be alone by shawn
Gul by anuv 
The wisp sings 
All of me 
Smoking and crying 
Make you mine acoustic 

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