Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I am in a relationship since 2 yrs ,it was my first relationship . He was surrounded by many problems …I gave my all to help him emotional ,physically ,mentally ,…the most you could even expect your wife to give that much . I was there with him in all his problems ,said yes to everything he asked for, said to me .I always worked on the theory that you give your best without expecting and the other will reciprocate because they will know your worth. The problem came when I saw nothing coming from his side …I didnt expect and moved on that when he’ll understand he will reciprocate but no use …now the situation is he don’t even do the bare minimum and fight everytime I tell him my point of view …he never listens to what I want and always does what he wants and that too he will ask me what do you want and if I’ll say something else of what he wants to listen he’ll fight and if I’ll say the same to avoid fights …he’ll say see I did what you wanted .there are many such examples like these. If he is sad he’ll misbehave and if he is happy want to flirt he’ll do that and if I say what he did earlier he would say …the only thing I do is “nautanki” which he don’t care about and is fed up of it.i keep on getting panic attack everyday and when I call him he only blocks me even in that miserable situation telling these are all acting

I feel miserable ,tortured ,used
In these yrs I have given him soo much that I am not able to think anything apart of him ,I have lost my confidance on men and also me that I am worthy of getting something good
Also when he talks to me properly I am flown away and ready to forget all these torture he did ro me and again the cycle continues